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some people say blogs are boring, mundane accounts of daily life. they are, arent they!?

nostalgia
been talking to a old friend from loyola. pratyush. hes doing fine. lives near where sean connery has a place.
is planing on doing a phd. doc prat. that would be cool really.
loyola was frankly, the best time of my life. i got out of my home in loyola. and it was great.
a lot of my growing up happened there. lot of innocence. then IMI happened and i saw the ugly part of life.
it keeps going on. i keep growing up. and parts of my life seem almost unbelievably beautiful and just as far away.
and they keep becoming almost like a dream sometimes.

this is what i want

ATI Hercules Radeon 9200 128MB Tv-Out/DVI

hit your boss day.

this one is gory

gig place



this one is so classic. i wish someday i will be making some poster like that out of the blue.

here and there i have been

packing up. it takes quite a lot of time. its quite a mystery what bombay will be like. i have never gone there. though i have travelled to almost everywhere else. seen a tiger in the wild. gone white water rafting in the ganga. got bitten by wild bees in the nilgiris (and almost died). lived in delhi, guwahati, coimbatore, madurai, chennai, tuticorin, tirunelveli, trichy. been to countless places in india. but i have never been outside the country. i guess that will be remedied soon. :)

all my life i have been closest to nature i think. more than anything. i feel so comfortable in a quiet forest. and not of laziness. out of the awareness of life inside it. it is really beautiful. i wanted really to go to valparai this summer. but instead, i went to jaipur.

the errors

i found out that if i write after entering once on this place, all the font comes in as one size. earlier it wasnt. that was becoz it would pick up the font size of the date time stamp and only later, after i have entered once, would it pick up the paragraph font. frankly, i dont know why that happens. but this, i guess is like a patch.

i must say, the photographs on the blog look pretty good. i have half a mind to have lots of them on, and half a mind not to. it isint going to load fast enough first of all, and secondly, it just is too much trouble finding photos already on the net, which convey what i want to say.
i am downloading nero right now (for personal evaluation purposes only!) and it will take some time. so maybe i will put up something in that time here.

time travel

time travel isint possible.
if i could travel through time, and would meet myself in my past, wouldnt i have the memory of meeting myself in the past even before i took the decision to go back into time? since i will not have any such memory (especially since if i DO have the memory, i would not have to really do anything, and i would still end up travelling through time?!!!), it is impossible to meet myslef in my past.
then, how can you explain time travel? possibly by saying that if i do meet myself in the past, in that one instant of meeting, my future changes, and i go on another path, another totally different universe. that means, i have actually switched universes while travelling through time, and if i need to get back to my present, i would have to go from this altered universe to my own one.
now, it is statistically impossible to have another universe absoloutely identical to mine. it would equire me to have the same set of infinite number of circumstances throughout my life for it to be possible. that, is just not happening!

infact, for there to exist another universe which is exactly identical to this one, it would have to be either be viewed from a significantly larger plane to dissolve individual differences (like watching sand on a beach; its all the same!) or it would have to have very limited choice sets available. both cases are not possible in a universe where there are infinite possibilities from our perspective.
so, no other universes. no other places, which means, no other pasts or futures; just one. which means, no recollection of meeting myself. thus, no time travel

inherently, this logic has some flaws. will try to look into them tomorrow.

allegorical portrait of dante



this is the cover of the divine comedy. the potrait i think shows the delectable mountain. or someplace else?

eschatology

1. The branch of theology that is concerned with the end of the world or of humankind.
2. A belief or a doctrine concerning the ultimate or final things, such as death, the destiny of humanity, the Second Coming, or the Last Judgment.

this word is from dante's divine comedy, which i have just started reading. if nothing else, i am realizing that understanding that poem will take me a very long time. there is too much allegory and too much reference to dante's italy and to the history of that period. however, i will make a pretty good try. ofcourse, time is a factor which may not allow me to read and comprehend at the pace at which i want to. lets see.

what i listen to sometimes

i am kinda done with the customizing. it is a simple enuf thing. the colours are easy to view. and ofcourse, there is the matrix print on it. there has to be some influence, and that too, on the net. how perfect.
now that i have commenting on, i think i should start talking about controversial topics. something that makes you want to take a sweep at the mouse button and click and rite a vociferous comment.
thats kinda thing gets the net moving.

this is a post in between customizing changes. i am finally getting the hang of this whole thing. its not difficult at all. but choosing the combination of colours is just not so easy.

latest movie seen: xmen2
think it is: better than ok.

thats about all i have to say tonite your honour. i am sleepy.

i just got american life on kazza at home!
i hadnt imagined that i would be able to do something like that from home.
cool. i am dowloading some songs from the matrix reloaded.
there is this place on the net, called matrix essays which is discussing the hidden allegories in the matrix. hidden allegories? can allgories be hidden or are they already that!?
hey, what the _uc_
today was very very hot in chennai.
i saw american beauty again today. if u think about it, all these english movies are all about leaving material things to get to something inside you. find the inner you. find what u want to do. from the matrix to american beauty. its all about leaving the material world for the spiritual world. i guess america is kinda obsessed with this thought right now. even madonna is!

so i want to see all the movies playing. the core, cradle to the grave and xmen2. and anand dosent want to see them. the thing is, i think unless u dont see whats bad, will u make something good. ridiculous argument, but hey. thats the best reason i can think for seeing the movie. that and that i am totally vella.

vella = jobless, free, without anything to do, sitting in the heat thinking about the cool things.

hey, there was a guy called martello,
who liked to play the cello
but all he could ever do,
was sit around and say hello.

is this a limerick or is it a poem?
and what the heck is the difference?!
that was the topic of a small discussion this evening between me and parul.
so, like i said , i am vella. anand is getting some dvd's from a friend. and i damm hope i can see a whole load of them in the next week. plus, recoup some of my collection by riting some cds on his cd riter. and bhaiya, if u r reading this, u shudnt use those cds that u do use. they have all gone bad. i hae just been lucky to be able to retrieve some of it back , but i had to just throw away 2 of the cds. and they had good songs man.
damm. i hate it when i lose songs.
i read aks' blog today. she has got some very good knowledge of sinhalese people on the basis of very limited contact with them. pretty cool. but, hey aks, plas start riting on your blog again. share your thougths so that everyone knows what kind of a person u are, and thus is able to mainpulate you.
thats the paranoid view atleast. but think about it. why the hell (name) do we rite here?
its like standing naked. here is my mind on the internet. please go through it and let me know what you think about it.
or hey, lets stop talking. lets just read each others blog.
banter. bah. the imbeciles.
'nuf sed 2nite.

there is almost no thing which comes close to the feeling of riding a scooter in jaipur. inspite of it being so congested, it is still remarkably calm. the wind blows and there is somehting so 'north indian' about the streets that it sometimes feels like a movie set!
i saw this one road though, which was not more than 5 feet wide, and was easily over a kilometer long. can u imagine a narrow street like that, with houses on both sides. it looked like the street converged into itself a great distance away.
today, we did some puja and gave food to a cow. i had to wash the cow's tail ( i just dropped water on it) and its feet. the story is that the spirit holds on to the cows tail as the cow crosses the river which takes the soul to heaven. pretty neat.
there is actually so much detail and all for very particular reasons. and the best thing is, once u know the detail, the whole thing makes so much sense. but wihtout it, it is just actions and words. this is true for everything, but in religion, it has a special place.
i still havent gone inside hawa mahal though, and probably never will. till i make up my mind to copme here asa tourist. i guess that wont happen for a long long time.
there are a lot of people back home. and we are expecting some 150 people for dinner. all close relatives. man, its a small world.
gotta go. its actually fun!

i am in jaipur.
i rote some things for the blog on the train, but felt it was just too journoistic to bring it here and put it up on the net. so i am not going to rite any more pblogs anymore.
jaipur is actually cooler than madras..can u imagine that?!
that too when madras had the hottest day after 1910 yeaterday.
whew.that is something.
so i saw my mom's brother's home theatre yeaterday. makes me want to buy one too.
right now, am having too much food.

saw the movie the recruit.
what do i think: okay
so what was the day like. like anand sed, we chilled out. went to spencers, coffee day, saravans, the movie. it was nice.
good trip outside home. i leave for jaipur the day after, and will be boiling soon.
wish me luck.
listening to moby right now, and it feels good.
and ya, mihir, opeth is growing on me.

i am switching windows. it always happens on a dial up.
the internet i think is not really understood properly by people with low bandwidth. it will take a lot of years before we can grasp the full potential of it.
ok, boring talk that was.
so i dont have any new thoughts today. kinda in a lull. i am reading RASAM. thats mainly about M&A's. its kinda fun. the book i am reading has some interesting stuff. makes u think.
so tom's 17th i think. my nanima (mom's mom), is going bak to jaipur tom. that will probably be the most exciting thing tom!