Saturday, May 18, 2002

going to the mountains tomorrow for a day. will be trekking in the nilgiris, the blue hills (as the look blue from the plains)
the forests there are filled with tigers, panthers, wild elephants (the most dangerous), bison, and lots of varieties of deer.
last time i went there, saw a bison kill and a relatively fresh deer kill. was pretty exciting. alhtough i havent seen a tiger or anything in this area, i have seen 3 tigers in the wild before. the closest one was jsut about 15 feet from me in the dead of the night, around 3am.
believe me, i really dont want to see a tiger when i am walking in the jungle. i mean, if you can see a tiger, it can definetly see you!!!
hopefully, will have a good time. ofcourse, these forests have wild animals but arent really dangerous. i think the world is more dangerous outside these forests.
for a variety of reasons.

Thursday, May 16, 2002


Aarti, there was a time when I thought about you
Aarti, there was a time when I counted time
Aarti, there was a time when time stopped
Aarti, there was a time when time moved on
Aarti, there was a time when time told me
Oh, Aarti, time doesn't let you do all those things you always wanted to do.


There are moments of inspiration
And there are of decision
There are times when the mind leaves you
There are times when it embraces you.
There are those when you are alone
While others when you are at home
There are times for comfort
And there are times for letting this go on.

Wednesday, May 15, 2002

makes you understand that weakness is so easy to get. the burning in my chest has gone, but its memory wont. i havent had anything like this before. how many people have had the feeling that they are delirious, but are unable to do anything about it?
today, i am facing a difficult situation.
i am doing something i do not feel inetrested in. however, i cannot get out of it since it has the capability to influence my life, and it is doing that right now too! a lot of times, decisions get made because we are unable to act. the decision not to be in a situation of this kind again.
my friend got into NID. hats off to him.

Monday, May 13, 2002


I saw her dancing in the rain
Laughing at the black sky
Holding her arms out to the horizon
Her skirt billowing in the wind
I saw her rotating in the rain
Getting wet and understanding nature
Moving her naked feet in the wet mud
Feeling clean and free
After so many years


Shattering silence.
Breaking into my mind
The sound of my heart
Making me agonize over the emptiness
Shattering silence.
The break from the past eating me
The agony of memory getting to my mind
Shattering silence.
Making me confront myself
Making me accept the unacceptence
Losing myself, losing myself.


There was a love once
Who was young and innocent?
There were times when I felt I was not right
But then, I also taught her about life
She has gone, there is but her memory
Perhaps one day.
I know I will be born again.

Monday, May 06, 2002

what is the difference between the real world and the virtual world?
the exciting nature of anonymity. the need to lose controls, and the fact that there are none.

this blog is all about what i wouldnt really put to so many people out there in true print, merely because at this juncture i really dont know what i am going to write here. somehow for me, writing has been a way to get thought out of my head and into my consiousness. this way, i am able to identify myself and 'profile' myself better!

i was thinking about u

like one thinks about smoke floating in the air

like one feels when listening to old country music

like one feels on a nice warm morning

like one feels after stretching in the morning in the bed

hopefully, in this place i will let you know about what i think and what i am capable of thinking. i am pretty new to getting stuff up on the web, though i am not so new to writing ( who isint!)