i really dont think i will be able to sustain it.
i am bak on track on the war. for a few days, i kind of went off it. its strange really. it just got too much. too much of bullshit.
on cnn, msnbc, washington post, all those american papers. even bbc. the only sane voice i think is the guradian and sometimes (!) the ny times. ofcourse, there are places like commondreams and stuff, but first of all, i really dont know the kind of support those sites have, and secondly, sometimes, those articles are just too extremist. ok, dont have the war, but dont say bush is like osama. even if he is!
i think if the iraqis had press conferences like the one ari fleischer has, in a suit, with the iraqi seal and all that, it would make a lot of difference. its about marketing to your audience. noone is going to hear some guy holding an AK and telling about cluster bombings in your territory. come on, just grow up. relax, put your gun down, and then attack.
hey, i am in india, and the war's been fought so far away. sometimes, riting here seems very phony. like philosophy; with no basis.
these days, i have stopped being able to see the 'world view'. the Big picture. i just cant see it. its outside my frame.
a friend of mine is probably going to go to iraq with the indian govt's contingent of red cross people. i think she flies in a few days if all goes well. i wish i cud go and see the whole thing. it wud be fun, rite?

hmmm....this is not as simple as it looks...i will have to do some stuff in dreamweaver i guess....which mite be a little work. i dont know if i will be able to sustain it though.

i listen to this these days

to use an american word. i am probing blogging.

i listen to this these days

to use an american word. i am probing blogging.

i have been trying to understand the whole blogging thing properly.
i think i am getting the hang of it though, i still hav lots to learn,. like i can use html and just paste it here?!!
wud like to do some dreamweaver stuff, but dont have the time rite now.
plus, i am passing out of this place soon, and i think i better do stunts like putting up pages when i have a good net conn again!

read arundhati's latest article at the guradian. i dont know. its too much of talk. what to do, damm it?!
what to do!?!

Blogroll Me!

my saying that raed is dea is kinda bad. i was reading his archives, and hes a pretty decent chap!
had a dream about raed and someone telling me that he was dead since the last 2 days. kinda scary what. i hope he dosent die.
but then dreams are just that for me. i usually dont dream. and stuff that happened in my dream dosent translate into reality. so no problem, i guess.
i went to lafpat nagar today with kshttry, gauri and neeti. lajpat nagar is like jaipur in some many ways!
its really cool. i liked it for that. it has the jaipur feel, of lots of colour, and tons of food. even the shops have a jaipur feel to them. they are small, well light, with the owner (lala) sitting wearing a kurta pajama. very jaipur!
i think i will buy a digi cam in a few months and probably upload images here. will explain a lot of things better.
had some gol guppe. people call them different things in different states in india. some call it pani puri, or pani patashi, or patashe. i like pani puri though. the name, i mean. ofcourse, its the same thing.
i have been reading the russian GRU's intel on iraq, and it is pretty good. its unbiased, for one. its also pretty accurate. i guess will get lot of info from there, though how it is going to reach a whole load of people, i dont know.
somehow, whenever i am on the computer, or on the internet, i am thinking just of the war. and iraq. its crazy right?!
hey, if the war goes on for 90 days withover a 1000 casualties from the US- brit team, then we might see withdrawl becasue of public opinion. hows that?
hmmm.

i have been following raed's blog and it is quite an insight into whats happening in iraq. though for the last 2 days, he hasnt updated it, so maybe he is dead or something. just like that.
i have a fever, and tonite we have a farewell party. its kinda weird in this context in which we are in. a farewell party, music, some dance number. just think if some iraqi suddenly vaporizes in this place, i bet he would just break down and cry. somehow, we are just not alive when we are oblivious. i think we are putting too much faith in our leaders and thinking that they are actually working for the people and not for themselves. maybe we need to invovle oursleves more personally in our society. how, is another question?
if someone has any ideas, please tell me.

this message IS from my comp in my room!
the comp is cool...however, there is a problem. whenver is try to go into the bios, the thing restarts!
dammed if i have seen anything like this before.
been thinking about buyin a radeon 9000 pro video card. it costs about 5 grand in s'pore, AND, someone is going there!!!...so lets see.

heres a joke about 2 sardarji's.

a plane.
suddenly, the passengers see 2 sardarjis, obviously blind, feeling the way with sticks, wearing pilot clothes.
there is a sudden hush in the plane. just as some people are a bit relaxed, they both go into the cockpit!
everybody starts talking loudly about whats going on
then, suddenly the plane starts to taxi!!!!...now, all the passengers are really worried and the decibel level increases and people start to shout for the air hostesses and stuff....
take off position, and everybody is really wondering what to do and there is lot of commotion and some people are shouting.
then, the plane starts to run on the tarmac and just as the plane is getting to the end of the strip, everybody starts to screm really loud!....and the plane takes off!!!

in the cockpit, one sardar to another.....
"one day these passengers are not going to scream, and we are going to crash!"

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah

finished my ie exam...yeeeeeaaaa!

2 more to go and then this course is over!
had a fight with abs today.....its sad. he can do much more but does not wish to. or it dosent fit with his 'life strategy'. whatever the case, its a waste. makes me feel very angry at the kind of attitude he portrays. guess hes just a different person, whose 'life view' dosent fit with mine.
happens all the time what.
ok, so now i am going to get my motherboard back from nehru place, and probably, the next message will be from my comp!
bak to the movies time!

i bought a tshirt with the peace sign on it. i am wearing it now, and i think today, both the issues are covered in IMI; cricket and the war. its going to be a no fight in india. cricket will rule!
one thing is noticed on bbc this morning though. they are showing more anti-war protests. maybe there is too much time in-between bombing runs, or maybe anti-war is becoming bigger.
whatever the case, i think something needs to be done. pragmatism, realism and idealism. is it possible to make the ideal the pragmatic choice in a consious effort over a period of time?
maybe.

chek out these anti-war posters on the net.
i guess this is what comes out of obsessive war watching. u start looking at all kinds of stuff.
but, hey, these posters are really good u know. i am now thinking of distracting myself. somehow. i think i will be going shopping for white shirts with neeti this evening, so it will be a nice break. ofcourse,all the stuff about 'what breaks do baghdadians have' are valid points and sorry, i cant do anything about that.

so will go and have some food too! enuf sed. am hungry. lunch time.

chek out commondreams
i think cnn is so much crap that it almost sounds like a joke. they have made people into targets and the whole thing looks like a video game.
here in delhi, i hear absoloutely nothing on the war. nobody is concerned and the world just moves on. in fact,a lot of people are switching off. lets just watch cricket instead. what the fuck.
i never thought things could numb me. this gulf war has.
its like a daze. everything is like a daze. as i try to get implications. reasons. what it means to me as a person. later in life, and so on.
lets see.

lets give peace a chance
my mind is numb with the hugeness of what is happening in the world and the fact that i am unable as an individual to do anything.

life goes on for me now, but will it later? will there be bitterness about this past?
are we pushing ourselves to the brink?
i hope the leaders of the world do something. or in some time, life as we know it will change.

latest movie seen:catch me if u can.
think: it is really brilliant

some water in the desert.
had a discussion with Prof. ahindra yesterday, and we were talking about involving people into projects without obvious gain. end result: it is very difficult and more so with a peer group. exactly my situation.
give them publicity (recognition) and accolade. power, maybe. but how to control the power (power over itself)?
these and some other questions as to why my thermcole board keeps slipping off the wall involve my mind. challenge and distort me(haha).
ok
chek out phong
good tuts on photoshop.

am BAK on the BLOG!!

will post new stuff here....
anand, hey, thanx for cheking this out. plus, nice bloggers meet u guys did.good.
thinking of some ideas,but dont have the will to implement.
aw, come on

been some time since i rote here. i leave coimbatore on the 6th. it is a big enuf city in the state of tamilnadu in india. it is close to tiruppur, which is called the manchester of india. it is a textile centre and companies here export textile to most parts of the world. chances are, your Gap tshirt is made in tiruppur.
i am working with pepsi. this company and coke, both,dont make a lot of sense. how can anyone sell somethng like pepsi all his life? it is a product with no value benefit. its kinda crazy actually. the kind of energy and effort and money which go into products like these. perhaps someday, we will realize that all the intelligence we put into stuff like this might just be needed someplace else. till then, we just go on.
tell me something, what would you rather sell? coke, or bicycles?
makes you think dosent it? makes me think a lot. makes me want to slowly change the world sometime. but all that isint really possible. when you get under the surface, there is just too much going on to make sense. the enormity of public information is dwarfed by that in the private and the government domain. that is the one which actually runs and rules the world. the people of the world only see that which is allowed to be seen. it is very rare, and fortunate, when we get to kow about thigns which shudnt be happening. that, is the check on subversion.
perhaps it is too less. or perhaps, subversion itself is controlled. i was thinking about the movie matrix. i makes more sense if u think of the virtual and the real world as parts of a single whole. like the public and the secret world. both have an effect on each other, but each is independent of each other. and once u r out in the real world, coming into the virtual world is risky and can be done only if u have the information and the means to match it. makes u wonder, if that was the point of the movie.

going to the mountains tomorrow for a day. will be trekking in the nilgiris, the blue hills (as the look blue from the plains)
the forests there are filled with tigers, panthers, wild elephants (the most dangerous), bison, and lots of varieties of deer.
last time i went there, saw a bison kill and a relatively fresh deer kill. was pretty exciting. alhtough i havent seen a tiger or anything in this area, i have seen 3 tigers in the wild before. the closest one was jsut about 15 feet from me in the dead of the night, around 3am.
believe me, i really dont want to see a tiger when i am walking in the jungle. i mean, if you can see a tiger, it can definetly see you!!!
hopefully, will have a good time. ofcourse, these forests have wild animals but arent really dangerous. i think the world is more dangerous outside these forests.
for a variety of reasons.

Aarti

Aarti, there was a time when I thought about you
Aarti, there was a time when I counted time
Aarti, there was a time when time stopped
Aarti, there was a time when time moved on
Aarti, there was a time when time told me
Oh, Aarti, time doesn't let you do all those things you always wanted to do.

Time

There are moments of inspiration
And there are of decision
There are times when the mind leaves you
There are times when it embraces you.
There are those when you are alone
While others when you are at home
There are times for comfort
And there are times for letting this go on.

fever.delirium.
makes you understand that weakness is so easy to get. the burning in my chest has gone, but its memory wont. i havent had anything like this before. how many people have had the feeling that they are delirious, but are unable to do anything about it?
today, i am facing a difficult situation.
i am doing something i do not feel inetrested in. however, i cannot get out of it since it has the capability to influence my life, and it is doing that right now too! a lot of times, decisions get made because we are unable to act. the decision not to be in a situation of this kind again.
my friend got into NID. hats off to him.