from the song HERE AGAIN by RUSH
You know I've, I've seen your face before.
Is it ever gonna, ever gonna change again?
Oh, oh I've, I've been in one place too long.
Is it ever gonna, ever gonna change again?
Sunday, September 28, 2003
RUSH
finding my way
need some love
take a friend
here again
what you're doing
in the mood
before and after
working man
from the album RUSH. the cover of this album is really slick. very neat. very clean work. most of the times, this kind of work takes the most amount of time. getting something to look simple.
the song here again is very cool. its playing in my headphones now, and the guitar is just too cool. its a long song. the lead is amazing, and the bass is awesome.
the beat is just too cool too. its one of those songs to which you can sway to.
finding my way
need some love
take a friend
here again
what you're doing
in the mood
before and after
working man
from the album RUSH. the cover of this album is really slick. very neat. very clean work. most of the times, this kind of work takes the most amount of time. getting something to look simple.
the song here again is very cool. its playing in my headphones now, and the guitar is just too cool. its a long song. the lead is amazing, and the bass is awesome.
the beat is just too cool too. its one of those songs to which you can sway to.
freddy fender
wasted days and wasted nights
this is a song playing on a sunday morning. and it says, why should i keep loving you. when i know you are not true.
this applies to me. from somebody else to me. self esteem takes beatings most from itself. there is something very sinister about retrospection. its like a devil making you live your personal hell(sometimes). nice and warm in your mind.
like....so many things. i think i have had enough of those like... that and this statements. i have made many earlier. they were beautiful. and still are. but thats it now.
sometime back this girl asked me to write a song that she could sing in college. so i did. i never got to know if she used it or not. strange isint it. if you ask someone to write a song for you. you atleast tell him what happened to it, right?
there are copyright issues and local content requirements to which i had strictly adhered to. there has to be information about creative content. hello, who is singing my song?(if at all!?)
i am going to office now. on a sunday. can you beat that.
wasted days and wasted nights
this is a song playing on a sunday morning. and it says, why should i keep loving you. when i know you are not true.
this applies to me. from somebody else to me. self esteem takes beatings most from itself. there is something very sinister about retrospection. its like a devil making you live your personal hell(sometimes). nice and warm in your mind.
like....so many things. i think i have had enough of those like... that and this statements. i have made many earlier. they were beautiful. and still are. but thats it now.
sometime back this girl asked me to write a song that she could sing in college. so i did. i never got to know if she used it or not. strange isint it. if you ask someone to write a song for you. you atleast tell him what happened to it, right?
there are copyright issues and local content requirements to which i had strictly adhered to. there has to be information about creative content. hello, who is singing my song?(if at all!?)
i am going to office now. on a sunday. can you beat that.
may you be forever young
to all those people who have touched me. may you stay forever young.
sometimes, life brings you to such crossroads that life itself becomes a choice. not in terms of giving it up, but in terms of what it has been and what it will be and how you bet yourself for that.
giving up a pattern in your life is so difficult. some days back i had written that knowing the path and walking on it makes it easier. but i think that knowing the path makes you not want to take the path, and secondly, makes the journey so much more difficult. because you know whats coming up next and for how long.
life is too big a bet. the choices we make are just betting on something. with no options for a redo anytime later. some chances we take work out ok, and some dont. we just have to live with it all the time.
to all those people who have touched me. may you stay forever young.
sometimes, life brings you to such crossroads that life itself becomes a choice. not in terms of giving it up, but in terms of what it has been and what it will be and how you bet yourself for that.
giving up a pattern in your life is so difficult. some days back i had written that knowing the path and walking on it makes it easier. but i think that knowing the path makes you not want to take the path, and secondly, makes the journey so much more difficult. because you know whats coming up next and for how long.
life is too big a bet. the choices we make are just betting on something. with no options for a redo anytime later. some chances we take work out ok, and some dont. we just have to live with it all the time.
Thursday, September 25, 2003
hot cars and cold offices
i go to my office. and it is so cold there, that i cant wait to get into my car and just keep the window rolled up and drive to whereever i am going. and the warmth in the car just feels so good.its amazing. but ofcourse, after sometime, i feel very hot and then i turn the window down. soon, i cant wait to get into the airconditioned office. but just for sometime.
life is more or less revolving around these kinds of emotions. this kind of mechanical excitement. the excitement of predictability.
i go to my office. and it is so cold there, that i cant wait to get into my car and just keep the window rolled up and drive to whereever i am going. and the warmth in the car just feels so good.its amazing. but ofcourse, after sometime, i feel very hot and then i turn the window down. soon, i cant wait to get into the airconditioned office. but just for sometime.
life is more or less revolving around these kinds of emotions. this kind of mechanical excitement. the excitement of predictability.
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
a little clarity
....
clarity of thought is very essential to any process.
i saw the movie 'life of david gale' today. it was a movie the DVD shop i go to had suggested. i think it was a good bet. kevin spacey, in his usual 'clear' voice. and kate winslet, doing what she knows best. being emotional. and shedding the somalian water supply in the process.
there ws something too dramatic and plastic about the ending. the little lines towards the end were like they were in a play. a old shakespearean one, for that.
but the performances were good. and the plot was even better. what was great however, was the midsection. the thought process. the lines in the middle of the movie. one which really did not need the movie.
lines about life. about love. about what is expected and what happens. more than that, it is also the kind of thought process that most people go through. atleast, i think they do. midlife crisis about who we are and what we are here for. an understanding that all we ever lived for, is no longer living for us. that there is a need for something to now live for us. there is always a need to put our footprints on the sands of time(so they say). making that possible, is something we never think about earlier, and then realize it is too late to think about.
philosophy aside, and that formed the basis of david gale, the sunsets in the movie were amazing. is it to show how the sunset(the end of the day) is the most beautiful. and correspondingly, life. and the end of it, wishes to be like that?
....
clarity of thought is very essential to any process.
i saw the movie 'life of david gale' today. it was a movie the DVD shop i go to had suggested. i think it was a good bet. kevin spacey, in his usual 'clear' voice. and kate winslet, doing what she knows best. being emotional. and shedding the somalian water supply in the process.
there ws something too dramatic and plastic about the ending. the little lines towards the end were like they were in a play. a old shakespearean one, for that.
but the performances were good. and the plot was even better. what was great however, was the midsection. the thought process. the lines in the middle of the movie. one which really did not need the movie.
lines about life. about love. about what is expected and what happens. more than that, it is also the kind of thought process that most people go through. atleast, i think they do. midlife crisis about who we are and what we are here for. an understanding that all we ever lived for, is no longer living for us. that there is a need for something to now live for us. there is always a need to put our footprints on the sands of time(so they say). making that possible, is something we never think about earlier, and then realize it is too late to think about.
philosophy aside, and that formed the basis of david gale, the sunsets in the movie were amazing. is it to show how the sunset(the end of the day) is the most beautiful. and correspondingly, life. and the end of it, wishes to be like that?
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
now, about rights
i was reading this thing about how bad wages were in the US. lot of people say that the US is this and that, and all they are able to do good is to show the best of themselves. maybe even the illusionary. hey, look at all the wars. the black fight for them. the black run for them. the white have the money. the black die for them( largest numbr of prisioners in the world). hell. everybody knows about it. and still. you guys stay there. for the freedom. for the anonymity? i think it is too great a price.
rights of man. when you can stand u without fear of retribution. and say. i live in my own idealist world of my own. one which has too many conditions on the quality of men. one which does not exist. the saddest bit is the cognizance of that fact. but i persist.
i was thinking last night. and i thought i am giving up my judgement for some time. i am not going to decide on the quality of my life and on the quality of my work for some time. some people dont understand that. but i think i have the right to experiment with a few years of my life. if nothing, to know what i dont want to do. ofcourse, in all this, my ego does kick in. and sometimes it is difficult to play the role i am trying to play.
sometime back my boss asked me, hey, what is your long term goal? and this is after a comment on the blueness of the skies these days.
and guess what? i dont have a long term goal.
i was reading this thing about how bad wages were in the US. lot of people say that the US is this and that, and all they are able to do good is to show the best of themselves. maybe even the illusionary. hey, look at all the wars. the black fight for them. the black run for them. the white have the money. the black die for them( largest numbr of prisioners in the world). hell. everybody knows about it. and still. you guys stay there. for the freedom. for the anonymity? i think it is too great a price.
rights of man. when you can stand u without fear of retribution. and say. i live in my own idealist world of my own. one which has too many conditions on the quality of men. one which does not exist. the saddest bit is the cognizance of that fact. but i persist.
i was thinking last night. and i thought i am giving up my judgement for some time. i am not going to decide on the quality of my life and on the quality of my work for some time. some people dont understand that. but i think i have the right to experiment with a few years of my life. if nothing, to know what i dont want to do. ofcourse, in all this, my ego does kick in. and sometimes it is difficult to play the role i am trying to play.
sometime back my boss asked me, hey, what is your long term goal? and this is after a comment on the blueness of the skies these days.
and guess what? i dont have a long term goal.
about rights
there is too much of hypocrisy. even i am one of them. (even i...like what?!)
i bought a new razor which uses a blade so i can save some money, and sometime in the future possibly start reducing the things i use which are actually luxuries.
and ofcourse, in the process, start helping out.
like i was discussing with somebody, this is all about getting your 'own dog'. something or somebody to care for, somebody who loves you. this innate nature of man to be held, to hold. to be bigger than himself/herself. to exist in the consiousness of another. isint it that drives us?
to affect. more than to be affected.
i think all this philosophical stuff primarily is also to possibly to do that only. to probe you. to make you think about this idea. i mean, look at blogs. why the hell? its all about putting up stuff so everybody can see and read and think about. or comment on. we wish to impinge.
so i was thinking how difficult however it is, to remove somebody from a consiousness. but that with time and effort and practise(!), that too seems not a difficult task. i think it is the story of knowing the path and then finding it easy to walk through it. tough it maybe, but the way is known.
there is too much of hypocrisy. even i am one of them. (even i...like what?!)
i bought a new razor which uses a blade so i can save some money, and sometime in the future possibly start reducing the things i use which are actually luxuries.
and ofcourse, in the process, start helping out.
like i was discussing with somebody, this is all about getting your 'own dog'. something or somebody to care for, somebody who loves you. this innate nature of man to be held, to hold. to be bigger than himself/herself. to exist in the consiousness of another. isint it that drives us?
to affect. more than to be affected.
i think all this philosophical stuff primarily is also to possibly to do that only. to probe you. to make you think about this idea. i mean, look at blogs. why the hell? its all about putting up stuff so everybody can see and read and think about. or comment on. we wish to impinge.
so i was thinking how difficult however it is, to remove somebody from a consiousness. but that with time and effort and practise(!), that too seems not a difficult task. i think it is the story of knowing the path and then finding it easy to walk through it. tough it maybe, but the way is known.
Monday, September 22, 2003
mellissa etheridge
this war is over
this song from the movie 'devil's own' has something so poignant about it. it is really cool stuff. the movie itself is almost so tragic. its been sometime since i saw something like that.
this war is over
this song from the movie 'devil's own' has something so poignant about it. it is really cool stuff. the movie itself is almost so tragic. its been sometime since i saw something like that.
a new blog post
i added some more links on the sidecar. i think sometime i would like to read that stuff on a daily basis.
i was talking with a old friend about stuff and it was cool. there are very few people i think i can interact like that in this world. its strange isint it. that there are so few like you. in this big place. i think its also a matter of collision. the mechanics of that in the real world between people is much tougher. i think its easier to brush against somebody than to collide with that person. in the mind i mean.
things we talked about.
animation. ai. games. music. women. billboards. bungee jumping. family. money. lifestyles. loneliness. life. physics.
i added some more links on the sidecar. i think sometime i would like to read that stuff on a daily basis.
i was talking with a old friend about stuff and it was cool. there are very few people i think i can interact like that in this world. its strange isint it. that there are so few like you. in this big place. i think its also a matter of collision. the mechanics of that in the real world between people is much tougher. i think its easier to brush against somebody than to collide with that person. in the mind i mean.
things we talked about.
animation. ai. games. music. women. billboards. bungee jumping. family. money. lifestyles. loneliness. life. physics.
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
on guitars and god
there is i think a lot of thot which goes into somethings. like god and guitars. both are things u need to have faith in. and sometime or the other, u need to have faith in something or the other. faith in oneself, faith in that, this.
i used to be a dreamer. now the dream has come to an end. in a way, that line has a lot of meaning. for me, in my own life, and generally, in the line itself.
there is something very sinister about coming to age. some bad after taste that lingers and makes u want to do something about it. makes you sometimes want to look back and see yourself playing and arguing about some silly thing like politics sometime back. however, the realization that there is not turning back and that this is the things that you were growing up to sets in, it feels very depressingly unfair.
i dont understand why the best years of life are never cherished as such while they are happening. we think of something ahead which will be better than this one.
like the indica car ad: its only human to want more
more than the metaphysical bit of life. are othe things that take up so much mind space that it becomes impossible to think of the things that u wud ideally like to think about. i think the balance lies in finding out and doing the two things simultaneously.
(is the spelling rite?!)
there is i think a lot of thot which goes into somethings. like god and guitars. both are things u need to have faith in. and sometime or the other, u need to have faith in something or the other. faith in oneself, faith in that, this.
i used to be a dreamer. now the dream has come to an end. in a way, that line has a lot of meaning. for me, in my own life, and generally, in the line itself.
there is something very sinister about coming to age. some bad after taste that lingers and makes u want to do something about it. makes you sometimes want to look back and see yourself playing and arguing about some silly thing like politics sometime back. however, the realization that there is not turning back and that this is the things that you were growing up to sets in, it feels very depressingly unfair.
i dont understand why the best years of life are never cherished as such while they are happening. we think of something ahead which will be better than this one.
like the indica car ad: its only human to want more
more than the metaphysical bit of life. are othe things that take up so much mind space that it becomes impossible to think of the things that u wud ideally like to think about. i think the balance lies in finding out and doing the two things simultaneously.
(is the spelling rite?!)
Monday, September 15, 2003
God Lyrics
God is a concept
By which we measure
Our pain
I’ll say it again
God is a concept
By which we measure
Our pain
I don’t believe in magic
I don’t believe in i-ching
I don’t believe in bible
I don’t believe in tarot
I don’t believe in hitler
I don’t believe in jesus
I don’t believe in kennedy
I don’t believe in buddha
I don’t believe in mantra
I don’t believe in gita
I don’t believe in yoga
I don’t believe in kings
I don’t believe in elvis
I don’t believe in zimmerman
I don’t believe in beatles
I just believe in me
Yoko and me
And that’s reality
The dream is over
What can I say?
The dream is over
Yesterday
I was the dreamweaver
But now I’m reborn
I was the walrus
But now I’m john
And so dear friends
You’ll just have to carry on
The dream is over
God is a concept
By which we measure
Our pain
I’ll say it again
God is a concept
By which we measure
Our pain
I don’t believe in magic
I don’t believe in i-ching
I don’t believe in bible
I don’t believe in tarot
I don’t believe in hitler
I don’t believe in jesus
I don’t believe in kennedy
I don’t believe in buddha
I don’t believe in mantra
I don’t believe in gita
I don’t believe in yoga
I don’t believe in kings
I don’t believe in elvis
I don’t believe in zimmerman
I don’t believe in beatles
I just believe in me
Yoko and me
And that’s reality
The dream is over
What can I say?
The dream is over
Yesterday
I was the dreamweaver
But now I’m reborn
I was the walrus
But now I’m john
And so dear friends
You’ll just have to carry on
The dream is over
jus parathas and flat tires
it happened to me stories
so we went to jus paranthas and also got two flat tires. i dont kow how to take such things. see, if the food is good and the service is good, hell, u can flat the tires and i will be mad at the guy who flattened it. if the food is good, but the service is really lousy, i will blame everybody in jus parathas, inclsdung the managment for the flat tire. i mean, come one man. i want out and to go home and blog for some time, and there is this flat.
so i am wondering that there arent so many services in this country for odd times u know. strange. not very, but just a bit.
we drove the car back to a petrol pump on the flat, filled the tyres(i,y, what the hell), and then got it bak where mes parents were waiting. it was a good nite though all in all. fun thing. the wind is cool, the weather is nice, and i also slept in the afternoon.
it is strange how precious sundays have become. i think one needs time to oneself. its just some time we have on this planet after all.
i have one question. how many people reading this blog wish they were actually doing something else in their daily lives? really. u can just say, 'me'.
not many people read this blog. but still.
and then, hey, why arent you doing that thing?
it happened to me stories
so we went to jus paranthas and also got two flat tires. i dont kow how to take such things. see, if the food is good and the service is good, hell, u can flat the tires and i will be mad at the guy who flattened it. if the food is good, but the service is really lousy, i will blame everybody in jus parathas, inclsdung the managment for the flat tire. i mean, come one man. i want out and to go home and blog for some time, and there is this flat.
so i am wondering that there arent so many services in this country for odd times u know. strange. not very, but just a bit.
we drove the car back to a petrol pump on the flat, filled the tyres(i,y, what the hell), and then got it bak where mes parents were waiting. it was a good nite though all in all. fun thing. the wind is cool, the weather is nice, and i also slept in the afternoon.
it is strange how precious sundays have become. i think one needs time to oneself. its just some time we have on this planet after all.
i have one question. how many people reading this blog wish they were actually doing something else in their daily lives? really. u can just say, 'me'.
not many people read this blog. but still.
and then, hey, why arent you doing that thing?
Sunday, September 14, 2003
guitar
i got my guitar!
its an cool blue thing with a 20w amp. sounds good and looks real good!
so now, all i have to do is learn to play the thing. and play it real good, u know what i mean.
thing is. i realized somehting in the morning today. which is pretty important. its just that now, once the days over, it kinda sounds not so great as it sounded earlier.
its not who we miss that counts. its who is missing us that governs our actions.
strangely, as our societies become more and more independent and individualitic, people are finding themselves identifying with groups and being not as happy. in a way, all this individualism is for happiness right. but if we arent being that, then what is the point?
discussing god is such a strange thing. there cannot be a discussion on faith can there be?
can two people discuss the concept of faith and come to some kind of a conclusion on it. especially, if they hold differing views on faith in the first place.
or like socrates and plato, is discussion more about bringing the other person to our point of view by putting forward arguments which are based on his/her statements and then using them as a base to draw a corollary?
one which forces the other person to either differ on a fundamental issue or on his/her belief.
i think discussion in the form which used to happen in plato's time( would that be the platonic era?!!) are really not possible these days. primarily because battle lines are too well defined today. and secondly, since egos are uncaged animals now.
the vagaries of nature, bring me to this stature.
just a thot. hey. u have fun.
the guitar is going to wake up the neighbourhood tomorrow.
i got my guitar!
its an cool blue thing with a 20w amp. sounds good and looks real good!
so now, all i have to do is learn to play the thing. and play it real good, u know what i mean.
thing is. i realized somehting in the morning today. which is pretty important. its just that now, once the days over, it kinda sounds not so great as it sounded earlier.
its not who we miss that counts. its who is missing us that governs our actions.
strangely, as our societies become more and more independent and individualitic, people are finding themselves identifying with groups and being not as happy. in a way, all this individualism is for happiness right. but if we arent being that, then what is the point?
discussing god is such a strange thing. there cannot be a discussion on faith can there be?
can two people discuss the concept of faith and come to some kind of a conclusion on it. especially, if they hold differing views on faith in the first place.
or like socrates and plato, is discussion more about bringing the other person to our point of view by putting forward arguments which are based on his/her statements and then using them as a base to draw a corollary?
one which forces the other person to either differ on a fundamental issue or on his/her belief.
i think discussion in the form which used to happen in plato's time( would that be the platonic era?!!) are really not possible these days. primarily because battle lines are too well defined today. and secondly, since egos are uncaged animals now.
the vagaries of nature, bring me to this stature.
just a thot. hey. u have fun.
the guitar is going to wake up the neighbourhood tomorrow.
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
things people say
so sometimes you gotta be like a girl. there is i think too many things we just dont do becoz they are girly and hey, they sometimes are a lot of fun.
its important to stop categorizing. not as a rule, but as often as possible.
what is, and what is not.
what is, is.
sometimes i can be profpund at all times of the day. the truth is, that is what i am. its not profound. its just some thought.
just that i dont need to get onto a lectern to start thinking. ofcourse, this statement has to be viewed in isolation.
to those people ( i know there arent , but still) who are first time visitors, blogs are increasingly becoming personalized messaging devices to people whom we want to send out messages to. this does not, however, expressly state that this blog, infact, does , or does not contain any such information, activity or propoganda( i guess this word will get me into the CIA's monitoring program- if they still have indians(read- the brains) to monitor the net!
i have become so opinionated that hell, i sometimes scare myself.
so sometimes you gotta be like a girl. there is i think too many things we just dont do becoz they are girly and hey, they sometimes are a lot of fun.
its important to stop categorizing. not as a rule, but as often as possible.
what is, and what is not.
what is, is.
sometimes i can be profpund at all times of the day. the truth is, that is what i am. its not profound. its just some thought.
just that i dont need to get onto a lectern to start thinking. ofcourse, this statement has to be viewed in isolation.
to those people ( i know there arent , but still) who are first time visitors, blogs are increasingly becoming personalized messaging devices to people whom we want to send out messages to. this does not, however, expressly state that this blog, infact, does , or does not contain any such information, activity or propoganda( i guess this word will get me into the CIA's monitoring program- if they still have indians(read- the brains) to monitor the net!
i have become so opinionated that hell, i sometimes scare myself.
things i want to do
or somethings that go on in my head in the course of a day. we al have brains and we all us them. just that some of use them and feel good about it, and others just use them.
go to estonia
read ulysees in one sitting
have a month off just to photograph stuff
have my camera record all those moments that i see all day, and wish i could record them
go trekking again( and not get almost killed this time)
publish another magazine
bring out another newspaper( and make sure it runs atleast for a year)
go to alanis morrisette's concert( i think she is SO wannabe-ingly cool)
make a cabinet for my computer with my hands. with metal and plastic and a power drill. and have 3 fans in it to cool my system(it get svery hot these days)
read read read
play an electric guitar everyday atleast for 10 minutes and feel like god( creating good music, that way)
see a tiger at 3am in the wild 10 feet away again(yaya)
walk in paris and in cincinnati sometime
take a bike and go from chennai to goa(and back)
make a ad(cool one-like the one in my head which is almost visible)
go shopping with a girl
row a boat in a lake with dense trees around and blue skies and white clouds above
walk along a almost flat mud path in the mountains in the afternoon after lunch
sleep after having an interesting conversation
or somethings that go on in my head in the course of a day. we al have brains and we all us them. just that some of use them and feel good about it, and others just use them.
go to estonia
read ulysees in one sitting
have a month off just to photograph stuff
have my camera record all those moments that i see all day, and wish i could record them
go trekking again( and not get almost killed this time)
publish another magazine
bring out another newspaper( and make sure it runs atleast for a year)
go to alanis morrisette's concert( i think she is SO wannabe-ingly cool)
make a cabinet for my computer with my hands. with metal and plastic and a power drill. and have 3 fans in it to cool my system(it get svery hot these days)
read read read
play an electric guitar everyday atleast for 10 minutes and feel like god( creating good music, that way)
see a tiger at 3am in the wild 10 feet away again(yaya)
walk in paris and in cincinnati sometime
take a bike and go from chennai to goa(and back)
make a ad(cool one-like the one in my head which is almost visible)
go shopping with a girl
row a boat in a lake with dense trees around and blue skies and white clouds above
walk along a almost flat mud path in the mountains in the afternoon after lunch
sleep after having an interesting conversation
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
lend me your ears
and i'll sing you a song, but dont mind if i am out of tune.
or something like that. this song from the 'wonder years' has been playing in my head since the last few days. and it is weird.
probably a call from my mental wild for some ear.
probably not. what utter rubbhisH!
its cool to leae space on your blog. like so.
its neat isint it. like u want to fill it with something. i think that is the cool bit.
so i was talking about putting my fotos on the net. i cudnt put them up on a major major space since i dont and wont (for some time) own a website. but they will be here.
its just the beginning i say to some. and to myself. so please forgive me. time is immemorial. fotos are not.
and i'll sing you a song, but dont mind if i am out of tune.
or something like that. this song from the 'wonder years' has been playing in my head since the last few days. and it is weird.
probably a call from my mental wild for some ear.
probably not. what utter rubbhisH!
its cool to leae space on your blog. like so.
its neat isint it. like u want to fill it with something. i think that is the cool bit.
so i was talking about putting my fotos on the net. i cudnt put them up on a major major space since i dont and wont (for some time) own a website. but they will be here.
its just the beginning i say to some. and to myself. so please forgive me. time is immemorial. fotos are not.
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
deep inside you
music again.
this has become my religion in a way. the music of the world. the best talk to me service in the world.
listening to third eye blind which is just very smooth. i think this whole technology thing has really helped this world by making better headphones. the thing with technology is that it makes better listening devices!
music again.
this has become my religion in a way. the music of the world. the best talk to me service in the world.
listening to third eye blind which is just very smooth. i think this whole technology thing has really helped this world by making better headphones. the thing with technology is that it makes better listening devices!
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
music
there is just not enought music isint it is?
i am listening to the show must go on on my headphones and it just feels so good. the beat, which is so deep, the sound of the guitar. the voice. and the whole thing coming together. the tune. the words.
there is frankly, a lot of depth in music which i never knew about.
apart from music. i was seeing this mail about weather futures. i also heard that in india, commodity futures are going to start operating in some time. next month. somebody in the office was saying it will be a lot of money made in that.
i talk to a lot of people in the stock and shares market, and they dont really play a lot on the futures market. see, only if a lot of people play on the f&o market will it be well spread out so that nobody will be able to control the market and bring f&o positions to the stock positions they have taken earlier. unfortunately in india, the f&o market is controlled by some fii's of some indiviuals, who basically make sure the stock value tends to the f&o value over a period of time so their prices get justified and they are able to hedge both places!
okok. so this was a little heavy. this world is quite interesting. isint anything in which you can make money sitting on a computer!?!
hey. so i am planning on scanning my snaps witha little help from anand sometime this weekend. will put them up. i think some of them are pretty good.
so do i have anything else to say?
i do.
i dont believe in god.
i dont believe in destiny.
i dont believe in fate
i dont believe in you.
sometimes, it seems like a waste. sometimes, it seems like a cool thing.
this life.
sometimes, it seems like a drag. and sometimes, it drags you on.
hey, sometimes, you feel like jumping off the wall.
sometimes, you feel like taking off.
there are things that i dont understand.
there is a future i dont see.
i dont think i want to see it.
and maybe the day i see it, i will want to not see it.
tell me, do you really want to know how your life is going to lead and end?
is it too difficult to decide what is just enough for me?
is it too difficult to figure out the balance?
there is just one fundamental thing.
let me not believe the world shud be from my point of view.
but let my point of view be shifting.
i ask the lords of the internet just this!!!!
i have never asked you for anything my lords.
just-e grant me this wish.
there is just not enought music isint it is?
i am listening to the show must go on on my headphones and it just feels so good. the beat, which is so deep, the sound of the guitar. the voice. and the whole thing coming together. the tune. the words.
there is frankly, a lot of depth in music which i never knew about.
apart from music. i was seeing this mail about weather futures. i also heard that in india, commodity futures are going to start operating in some time. next month. somebody in the office was saying it will be a lot of money made in that.
i talk to a lot of people in the stock and shares market, and they dont really play a lot on the futures market. see, only if a lot of people play on the f&o market will it be well spread out so that nobody will be able to control the market and bring f&o positions to the stock positions they have taken earlier. unfortunately in india, the f&o market is controlled by some fii's of some indiviuals, who basically make sure the stock value tends to the f&o value over a period of time so their prices get justified and they are able to hedge both places!
okok. so this was a little heavy. this world is quite interesting. isint anything in which you can make money sitting on a computer!?!
hey. so i am planning on scanning my snaps witha little help from anand sometime this weekend. will put them up. i think some of them are pretty good.
so do i have anything else to say?
i do.
i dont believe in god.
i dont believe in destiny.
i dont believe in fate
i dont believe in you.
sometimes, it seems like a waste. sometimes, it seems like a cool thing.
this life.
sometimes, it seems like a drag. and sometimes, it drags you on.
hey, sometimes, you feel like jumping off the wall.
sometimes, you feel like taking off.
there are things that i dont understand.
there is a future i dont see.
i dont think i want to see it.
and maybe the day i see it, i will want to not see it.
tell me, do you really want to know how your life is going to lead and end?
is it too difficult to decide what is just enough for me?
is it too difficult to figure out the balance?
there is just one fundamental thing.
let me not believe the world shud be from my point of view.
but let my point of view be shifting.
i ask the lords of the internet just this!!!!
i have never asked you for anything my lords.
just-e grant me this wish.
Monday, August 18, 2003
green eyes and golden hair
how do they manage to have such beautiful eyes and such golden hair?!
makes u wonder.
is it becoz they have that type of stuff on them and we have been told that it is 'that' which is beautiful, that we think it is.
it is definetly that. i made up a line.
congnizance is the result of initial stimulus.
it is.
how do they manage to have such beautiful eyes and such golden hair?!
makes u wonder.
is it becoz they have that type of stuff on them and we have been told that it is 'that' which is beautiful, that we think it is.
it is definetly that. i made up a line.
congnizance is the result of initial stimulus.
it is.
Sunday, August 17, 2003
money
in the end it boils down to it. dosent it.
money. the lack of or not of it.
it is strange. the ever twisting up cycle of needs and money. the better cell phone. with more features. the bigger tv. the better sound system. the cool guitar. the new car. the bigger toaster. better perfume for the girl. bigger, better. i am sure it needs to stop in the mind.
impress, compete, indulge, reward yourself. there must be a better way to live than that. this way sucks.
the reason behind the madness in the mind has to be found out. we fill up our lives with work so we dont feel bored and so we dont find out that we arent of much significance in the bigger construct of the world. but its so important, this one small little life that we have for ourselves. just so little time, and so many things that can be done. its important, very much, to give it meaning. to think for ourselves. to do for ourselves. to plan, chart out. move our butts.
hey, i am just doing my job. and if you show me any of that juris'dick'tion crap, you can cram't up your ass.
reality is. its so beautiful this life, that it makes me want a lot more. each moment is fully lived. and thought over, analyzed. for its beauty. not its cruelty, or its ugliness. (thats there). but hey, isint the slow motion cool. laughable. insightful. beautiful. everything matters. not to somebody else. to me. i think that is a very good reaosn to care about my life.
in the end it boils down to it. dosent it.
money. the lack of or not of it.
it is strange. the ever twisting up cycle of needs and money. the better cell phone. with more features. the bigger tv. the better sound system. the cool guitar. the new car. the bigger toaster. better perfume for the girl. bigger, better. i am sure it needs to stop in the mind.
impress, compete, indulge, reward yourself. there must be a better way to live than that. this way sucks.
the reason behind the madness in the mind has to be found out. we fill up our lives with work so we dont feel bored and so we dont find out that we arent of much significance in the bigger construct of the world. but its so important, this one small little life that we have for ourselves. just so little time, and so many things that can be done. its important, very much, to give it meaning. to think for ourselves. to do for ourselves. to plan, chart out. move our butts.
hey, i am just doing my job. and if you show me any of that juris'dick'tion crap, you can cram't up your ass.
reality is. its so beautiful this life, that it makes me want a lot more. each moment is fully lived. and thought over, analyzed. for its beauty. not its cruelty, or its ugliness. (thats there). but hey, isint the slow motion cool. laughable. insightful. beautiful. everything matters. not to somebody else. to me. i think that is a very good reaosn to care about my life.
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
they just play
so it seems.
i want to play the guitar too. u know. but it will take some time before i can get one, like maybe a month or something.
than,i have to learn how to play it.
today, i have fever. there, sed in a flourish. whenever i DO have fever, i think abot doing thigns like writing poems or composing music and so on. or writing a book. i even got a cool title in my head which i have forgotten now.
such, as i hve always sed, is life.
other thots in my head are about a lot of things. i want to photograph some really cool things. like, i have the images in my head, but i dont have the people to do them, or the props, or the sets and so on.
sadly, in the present state of my life, i willbe unable to do allthat.
on a happy note, the first few snaps came out well.
so it seems.
i want to play the guitar too. u know. but it will take some time before i can get one, like maybe a month or something.
than,i have to learn how to play it.
today, i have fever. there, sed in a flourish. whenever i DO have fever, i think abot doing thigns like writing poems or composing music and so on. or writing a book. i even got a cool title in my head which i have forgotten now.
such, as i hve always sed, is life.
other thots in my head are about a lot of things. i want to photograph some really cool things. like, i have the images in my head, but i dont have the people to do them, or the props, or the sets and so on.
sadly, in the present state of my life, i willbe unable to do allthat.
on a happy note, the first few snaps came out well.
Thursday, August 07, 2003
a whole new world
frankly, i dont have much to rite here.
there are lot of things in my mind alrite, but not much i can rite here. for variety of reasons. one of them being that there is just so much of it which is not quantified or is not really going anywhere.
like this whole thought.
hey, whoever is readin this. call on the fone.
then we will talk.
frankly, i dont have much to rite here.
there are lot of things in my mind alrite, but not much i can rite here. for variety of reasons. one of them being that there is just so much of it which is not quantified or is not really going anywhere.
like this whole thought.
hey, whoever is readin this. call on the fone.
then we will talk.
there is a new world somewhere always
this is the thot in my head.
thor and thunder. very very frightening.
what is the mening of a life which is just going on?
maybe i need to find the point when i can move on. or maybe i need to not go from one point or life point to another.
the formula that the formula dosent work mite just be rong, what?
each his owm, whats for me? wat?
this is the thot in my head.
thor and thunder. very very frightening.
what is the mening of a life which is just going on?
maybe i need to find the point when i can move on. or maybe i need to not go from one point or life point to another.
the formula that the formula dosent work mite just be rong, what?
each his owm, whats for me? wat?
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
long ritten thing
this shud have come in a long time ago, then, it shud have come in last nite, but now, it is coming in today.
all becoz the internet connection isint good enuf.
i could rite a lot of things here and it wouldnt have the same meaning for you as it would to me. it would be out of context, u see.
the weekend was good. we all had a good time in the evenings. the day, is, as usual spent trying to understand many things and trying to not involve myself.
i am feeling very disconnected from everybody these days and am planning on a number of things. lets see.
this shud have come in a long time ago, then, it shud have come in last nite, but now, it is coming in today.
all becoz the internet connection isint good enuf.
i could rite a lot of things here and it wouldnt have the same meaning for you as it would to me. it would be out of context, u see.
the weekend was good. we all had a good time in the evenings. the day, is, as usual spent trying to understand many things and trying to not involve myself.
i am feeling very disconnected from everybody these days and am planning on a number of things. lets see.
Saturday, August 02, 2003
Thursday, July 31, 2003
sage and onion
this was the first time that someone put water into a half filled glass of sprite. and then when pointed out, emptied the contents and bought back half a glass of sprite!!
man, the place serves ok food, but the service is really bad. for those who arent living in chennai and who dont know about S&O, feel blessed.
i also found out today how tough it is to get a credit card. after a million questions which the people asking them have no idea why they are asking, the credit card people finally tell me that they need a lot of things more....i then give them a letter basically detailing half my life, and now, probably, they will give me a credit card!
life is pretty tough in the capitalist era. frankly, the model dosent make sense. enjoying supernormal profits for providing a serivce is not part of the game. normal profits are probably what would enable one to live comfortably and would be in tune with welfare economics. but the capitalist philosophy believes in this reverse robin hood system of working. which puts me off.
so to speak.
this was the first time that someone put water into a half filled glass of sprite. and then when pointed out, emptied the contents and bought back half a glass of sprite!!
man, the place serves ok food, but the service is really bad. for those who arent living in chennai and who dont know about S&O, feel blessed.
i also found out today how tough it is to get a credit card. after a million questions which the people asking them have no idea why they are asking, the credit card people finally tell me that they need a lot of things more....i then give them a letter basically detailing half my life, and now, probably, they will give me a credit card!
life is pretty tough in the capitalist era. frankly, the model dosent make sense. enjoying supernormal profits for providing a serivce is not part of the game. normal profits are probably what would enable one to live comfortably and would be in tune with welfare economics. but the capitalist philosophy believes in this reverse robin hood system of working. which puts me off.
so to speak.
Tuesday, July 29, 2003
Monday, July 28, 2003
talking about things
today, we had a discussion about many things. i think i am finding out that the reasons for harbouring ideas about something are based on assumptions that one makes. however, it is very importat to question assumptions all the time. i think i need to do that all the time in my life. however, i think it will become increasingly difficult to do that after a certain age and knowledge. u have to let go of too many things. and accept too many other ones.
but will try anyhow.
today, we had a discussion about many things. i think i am finding out that the reasons for harbouring ideas about something are based on assumptions that one makes. however, it is very importat to question assumptions all the time. i think i need to do that all the time in my life. however, i think it will become increasingly difficult to do that after a certain age and knowledge. u have to let go of too many things. and accept too many other ones.
but will try anyhow.
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so that we can vote for the right guy.
and please do vote. its about your choice. and about your country after all.
Saturday, July 26, 2003
man. i just had a fight
its isint nice to be in one. but the truth is, there isint any better way to work out some middle ground. a little give and take thing. u know.
at work, now, things r getting hotter. i have lot of responsibility, and therefore, lot of work. dont know if i can handle it.
lets hope i can. because if i cant, it will mean a number of things.
its isint nice to be in one. but the truth is, there isint any better way to work out some middle ground. a little give and take thing. u know.
at work, now, things r getting hotter. i have lot of responsibility, and therefore, lot of work. dont know if i can handle it.
lets hope i can. because if i cant, it will mean a number of things.
Thursday, July 24, 2003
the movie is great
north by northwest has probably got one of the best shooting sequences i have ever seen. the plane scene is just amazing. it is dont with such candour, that u dont realize that time has passed by. the whole movie for that matter is do seamlessly put together, it is a delight to watch it.
one thing though. there is a chronological clause in the movie. ie, the movie's title for example will be undestood by people who know about northwest. and northwest is dead)or, if it isint, it will be)
i think movies need to have a kind of universal theme to it. like ran by kurosawa explres just the feelings of trust, loyalty and betrayal. among other things. and somehow, that movie is more global than somehting like north by northwest. inspite of it being jap.
i want to see the movie go
i have eard that it is good.
north by northwest has probably got one of the best shooting sequences i have ever seen. the plane scene is just amazing. it is dont with such candour, that u dont realize that time has passed by. the whole movie for that matter is do seamlessly put together, it is a delight to watch it.
one thing though. there is a chronological clause in the movie. ie, the movie's title for example will be undestood by people who know about northwest. and northwest is dead)or, if it isint, it will be)
i think movies need to have a kind of universal theme to it. like ran by kurosawa explres just the feelings of trust, loyalty and betrayal. among other things. and somehow, that movie is more global than somehting like north by northwest. inspite of it being jap.
i want to see the movie go
i have eard that it is good.
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
i am not riting tonite
dont feel like. again, as i sed yesterday, i have a lot of things to say, but i dont think i have the energy to mete it out. that plus, i dont think there is any point in putting it down here without me actually thinking about everything in more detail. which i am unable to do.
i watched north by northwest tonite, and it was goooodddd!
dont feel like. again, as i sed yesterday, i have a lot of things to say, but i dont think i have the energy to mete it out. that plus, i dont think there is any point in putting it down here without me actually thinking about everything in more detail. which i am unable to do.
i watched north by northwest tonite, and it was goooodddd!
Monday, July 21, 2003
eat your heart out
that comment above is jsut to draw your attention to this line.
HA
i must say though, that billairds is a really cool game. i went and played billiards with papa today and it was lots of fun. i wish i am able to play as often as possible. it will take some time to get the hang of the game and all that, but it is fun. thats what counts, right?
my work takes up a lot of my time. sometimes i think that it is taking too much of my time. but i dont think i will be able to live without it. i am getting used to the day passing working. and the nights passing sleeping.
so, whats left?
i hope i get a breather sometime in sometime.
i dont need one right now, but ya, in some time i will.
i saw to kill a mocking bird, and it is a wonderful movie. however, i felt it dosent rival the book. somehow, i havent found a single movie which has been able to rival the book it was made on. strange, isint it?
now so much actually. the book lets us be the directors, and hell, we are the best when it comes to making up stuff in our own minds.
i had so many things i wanted to rite about. but now, i just want to go bak home ( i am in a net centre) and sleep in some time after listening to some black sabbath.
those two lines from the earlier post, are from the conversation. the movie was wonderful , and the way the actress sung the lines was just very beautiful. i can find out who the actress is, and what she looks like and all that, but heck, what r u for?
that comment above is jsut to draw your attention to this line.
HA
i must say though, that billairds is a really cool game. i went and played billiards with papa today and it was lots of fun. i wish i am able to play as often as possible. it will take some time to get the hang of the game and all that, but it is fun. thats what counts, right?
my work takes up a lot of my time. sometimes i think that it is taking too much of my time. but i dont think i will be able to live without it. i am getting used to the day passing working. and the nights passing sleeping.
so, whats left?
i hope i get a breather sometime in sometime.
i dont need one right now, but ya, in some time i will.
i saw to kill a mocking bird, and it is a wonderful movie. however, i felt it dosent rival the book. somehow, i havent found a single movie which has been able to rival the book it was made on. strange, isint it?
now so much actually. the book lets us be the directors, and hell, we are the best when it comes to making up stuff in our own minds.
i had so many things i wanted to rite about. but now, i just want to go bak home ( i am in a net centre) and sleep in some time after listening to some black sabbath.
those two lines from the earlier post, are from the conversation. the movie was wonderful , and the way the actress sung the lines was just very beautiful. i can find out who the actress is, and what she looks like and all that, but heck, what r u for?
Thursday, July 17, 2003
the net is down
the robin is bob, bob, ...bobbing along...
along..
i got a dvd player. and i took membership in a dvd library, so life is nice these days. though i dont have the net, so its kinda dicey.
no net, is like no water. in a way.
i mean, no net, as an eventuality would be ok. but no net as a temporary condition is killing, isint it?!
thats true for all things, u know. if u read carefully.
ha. the philosopher.
conversation, the movie was good. not coppola's best, but good. i think apocalypse now is his best. the movie is so stark, and the point it drives home is so well said.
i think my favourite movie of all times is matrix, and then fight club. both of them look at the trouble of our lives. stereotypes, a mass standardization of humans, and how to break out of it. very interesting would be the comparison between the two movies (yoda style).
alvida.
the robin is bob, bob, ...bobbing along...
along..
i got a dvd player. and i took membership in a dvd library, so life is nice these days. though i dont have the net, so its kinda dicey.
no net, is like no water. in a way.
i mean, no net, as an eventuality would be ok. but no net as a temporary condition is killing, isint it?!
thats true for all things, u know. if u read carefully.
ha. the philosopher.
conversation, the movie was good. not coppola's best, but good. i think apocalypse now is his best. the movie is so stark, and the point it drives home is so well said.
i think my favourite movie of all times is matrix, and then fight club. both of them look at the trouble of our lives. stereotypes, a mass standardization of humans, and how to break out of it. very interesting would be the comparison between the two movies (yoda style).
alvida.
Sunday, July 13, 2003
i dont understand this
the man who sold the world
We passed upon the stair, we spoke of was and when
Although I wasn’t there, he said I was his friend
Which came as some surprise I spoke into his eyes
I thought you died alone, a long long time ago
Oh no, not me
I never lost control
You’re face to face
With the man who sold the world
I laughed and shook hishand, and made my way back home
I searched for form and land, for years and years I roamed
I gazed a gazley stare at all the millions here
We must have died along, a long long time ago
Who knows? not me
We never lost control
You’re face to face
With the man who sold the world
i dont understand what he is trying to say. maybe i need to put in some more time, but i dont have that. so.
if anyone out there knows,lemme know.
tonite, at the beach, the almost-full moon was peeping out of dark broken clouds and if you looked up, the world looked like one huge imax theatre. massively huge. curving, expansive. it was so beautiful. i hpe we hang on to till for a long time.
the man who sold the world
We passed upon the stair, we spoke of was and when
Although I wasn’t there, he said I was his friend
Which came as some surprise I spoke into his eyes
I thought you died alone, a long long time ago
Oh no, not me
I never lost control
You’re face to face
With the man who sold the world
I laughed and shook hishand, and made my way back home
I searched for form and land, for years and years I roamed
I gazed a gazley stare at all the millions here
We must have died along, a long long time ago
Who knows? not me
We never lost control
You’re face to face
With the man who sold the world
i dont understand what he is trying to say. maybe i need to put in some more time, but i dont have that. so.
if anyone out there knows,lemme know.
tonite, at the beach, the almost-full moon was peeping out of dark broken clouds and if you looked up, the world looked like one huge imax theatre. massively huge. curving, expansive. it was so beautiful. i hpe we hang on to till for a long time.
Saturday, July 12, 2003
i think the 'there is depth' thing is pretty corny
isint it corny? i think so now. its ot in very good 'vipulian' taste to be honest.
anyway. big deal. a blog is an anonymous place where everything is maaf(maaf= pardoned)
the problem is that i am not anonymous on the web. u see, everybody who reads this blog are exactly the people whom i dont want them to read. and the people who dont read are the people who shud.
its one of those things i cant change. like the taste of some perfetti bubblegum.
such, is the state of life.
workworkwork tomorrow. yeah. yeah. i know. its saturday. so, what?!
isint it corny? i think so now. its ot in very good 'vipulian' taste to be honest.
anyway. big deal. a blog is an anonymous place where everything is maaf(maaf= pardoned)
the problem is that i am not anonymous on the web. u see, everybody who reads this blog are exactly the people whom i dont want them to read. and the people who dont read are the people who shud.
its one of those things i cant change. like the taste of some perfetti bubblegum.
such, is the state of life.
workworkwork tomorrow. yeah. yeah. i know. its saturday. so, what?!
Thursday, July 10, 2003
interpretive wisdom
the girl down there is madhubala. for all those souls without cognizance of the fact that she is.
i just thot about her, and her look appeals to me. i have heard that she had a very tragic life. i picturize her in a white dress with a cigarette in her hand. somehow, that is the only image of her which rings true.
i had a thought this morning on a bike. that it is phenomenally difficult to recreate life. almost impossible to show it in the exact fashion it happens. in fact, the natural canot be imitated. because it ceases to be that once it is imitated.
simple isint it?
i bet there is no way to exactly stage 2 people walking towards each other. 2 strangers, without looking at each other, but choosing their paths.
on the work front, it is cool. i have got my targets now, and they are tough to get but interesting to pursue.
i got my daily target today, though i doubt i will be able to continue that.
the girl down there is madhubala. for all those souls without cognizance of the fact that she is.
i just thot about her, and her look appeals to me. i have heard that she had a very tragic life. i picturize her in a white dress with a cigarette in her hand. somehow, that is the only image of her which rings true.
i had a thought this morning on a bike. that it is phenomenally difficult to recreate life. almost impossible to show it in the exact fashion it happens. in fact, the natural canot be imitated. because it ceases to be that once it is imitated.
simple isint it?
i bet there is no way to exactly stage 2 people walking towards each other. 2 strangers, without looking at each other, but choosing their paths.
on the work front, it is cool. i have got my targets now, and they are tough to get but interesting to pursue.
i got my daily target today, though i doubt i will be able to continue that.
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
Tuesday, July 08, 2003
management
i hate the word, but somehow, the way it has come to be defined, it encompasses everything. like some fungus.
well.
how do i get some 9 guys to double business in one month?
and how so i make 4 guys who have 4-6 yrs of experience in the 'industry' listen to me?!
such and other mundane questions go thru my brain.
i hate the word, but somehow, the way it has come to be defined, it encompasses everything. like some fungus.
well.
how do i get some 9 guys to double business in one month?
and how so i make 4 guys who have 4-6 yrs of experience in the 'industry' listen to me?!
such and other mundane questions go thru my brain.
Monday, July 07, 2003
Sunday, July 06, 2003
powerful music
i am listening to the matrix reloaded cd and it is really powerful stuff!
plus, it is all on the headphones and it really gets into you. if i want, i can draw some thing out of it. ha. just kidding. music is music. period. i think we should understand the power and beauty of music but not get waylaid into the bigger issues, of spirituality, of anger display and all those things, when it comes to music.
hell, this post dosent make any sense.
just to give you an idea of the kind of stuff that goes on in a head when listening to matrix reloaded.
i am listening to the matrix reloaded cd and it is really powerful stuff!
plus, it is all on the headphones and it really gets into you. if i want, i can draw some thing out of it. ha. just kidding. music is music. period. i think we should understand the power and beauty of music but not get waylaid into the bigger issues, of spirituality, of anger display and all those things, when it comes to music.
hell, this post dosent make any sense.
just to give you an idea of the kind of stuff that goes on in a head when listening to matrix reloaded.
que sera sera
what will be is what has been.
as time goes by, there are more and more patters emerging out of the whole deal.
predictability increases as interaction goes up.
somebody once asked me how the hell i come up with lines like the one above?!
but i think it is just some kind of crystallization of thought. what i put here has been thought over to some degree. though i must admit that over the last 6 months or so, i have become increasingly formal in my thinking. and there is more and more logic governing my thoughts. i dont think that is really good. because if you are logic based, then you are also very predictable. the beauty of humans is that we are able to beat the machine by using machines. infact, look at the jedi concept. the reason they are able to beat the machines and are more powerful than them, is becasue of their leaving logic behind and acting on instinct.
kind of like the principle of agere contra. where action is based on the least likely course. kind of anti-logic.
what will be is what has been.
as time goes by, there are more and more patters emerging out of the whole deal.
predictability increases as interaction goes up.
somebody once asked me how the hell i come up with lines like the one above?!
but i think it is just some kind of crystallization of thought. what i put here has been thought over to some degree. though i must admit that over the last 6 months or so, i have become increasingly formal in my thinking. and there is more and more logic governing my thoughts. i dont think that is really good. because if you are logic based, then you are also very predictable. the beauty of humans is that we are able to beat the machine by using machines. infact, look at the jedi concept. the reason they are able to beat the machines and are more powerful than them, is becasue of their leaving logic behind and acting on instinct.
kind of like the principle of agere contra. where action is based on the least likely course. kind of anti-logic.
Thursday, July 03, 2003
sloshed
time and again, i tell myself not to go out in the rain.
its all wet, and if u arent, some godforsaken vehicle makes u wet.
such, is life.
i am going back to madras. i like madras better than chennai. damm, the word chennai just dosent sound good.
i will be there for about 4-8 months on a stint from my company trying to sell stuff. and i am going to start from the bottom. the thing is, next time someone approches you for something to buy, it just mite be me, and so please give me a patient hearing. buy me some coffee if u have time. i just mite be sleepy.
frankly. life is going to be pretty hectic for the next whatever months. i am thinking of 7 day weeks. i wudnt mind it actually. takes my mind off many things i wish i wudnt be thinking about. but which just dont go away.
life is such a complaicated thing, that it is almost impossible to analyze it. there are just too many variables. and most of the times, i think the people with instinct and the ability to act on them will be the ones who will have a good life. i hope i am able to do that. beating analysis takes out the whole factor of varibility.
so what is the one thing on my mind. my behaviour. and the whole thing about why i do behave the way i do, and should i be bothered. and if i shud not be, am i willing to make an ass of myself? and if the ass thing goes on for a substantial time period, how ok is that for me?
such and other useless questions take up my time.
see, this is exactly what i am talking about.
time and again, i tell myself not to go out in the rain.
its all wet, and if u arent, some godforsaken vehicle makes u wet.
such, is life.
i am going back to madras. i like madras better than chennai. damm, the word chennai just dosent sound good.
i will be there for about 4-8 months on a stint from my company trying to sell stuff. and i am going to start from the bottom. the thing is, next time someone approches you for something to buy, it just mite be me, and so please give me a patient hearing. buy me some coffee if u have time. i just mite be sleepy.
frankly. life is going to be pretty hectic for the next whatever months. i am thinking of 7 day weeks. i wudnt mind it actually. takes my mind off many things i wish i wudnt be thinking about. but which just dont go away.
life is such a complaicated thing, that it is almost impossible to analyze it. there are just too many variables. and most of the times, i think the people with instinct and the ability to act on them will be the ones who will have a good life. i hope i am able to do that. beating analysis takes out the whole factor of varibility.
so what is the one thing on my mind. my behaviour. and the whole thing about why i do behave the way i do, and should i be bothered. and if i shud not be, am i willing to make an ass of myself? and if the ass thing goes on for a substantial time period, how ok is that for me?
such and other useless questions take up my time.
see, this is exactly what i am talking about.
Saturday, June 28, 2003
hi again
your faithful computer chronologer is bak. with a vengeance. ofcourse, nobody will understand the relevance of that line since it is being said out of context. but, believe u me, it has lot of meaning!
so another day bites the dust, and i go to club9 at 11pm in the nite. i mean, we are all going to go in some time. soon. lets see what that gives. the music there is really good. really.
tommorrow is sunday and hopefully, a chilled out day.
things are getting hectic what. i like life like that. but i dont kow for how long. i had a shower tonite at, what, 1030pm. hell. probably will burn out soon this way.
that, plus what all crap goes on in my mind.
its all been done.
your faithful computer chronologer is bak. with a vengeance. ofcourse, nobody will understand the relevance of that line since it is being said out of context. but, believe u me, it has lot of meaning!
so another day bites the dust, and i go to club9 at 11pm in the nite. i mean, we are all going to go in some time. soon. lets see what that gives. the music there is really good. really.
tommorrow is sunday and hopefully, a chilled out day.
things are getting hectic what. i like life like that. but i dont kow for how long. i had a shower tonite at, what, 1030pm. hell. probably will burn out soon this way.
that, plus what all crap goes on in my mind.
its all been done.
Friday, June 27, 2003
breathe
Breathe, breathe in the air.
Don't be afraid to care.
Leave but don't leave me.Look around and choose your own ground.
Long you live and high you fly, and smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry, and all you touch and all you see, is all your life will ever be.
Run, rabbit run.
Dig that hole, forget the sun,
And when at last the work is done
Don't sit down it's time to dig another one.
For long you live and high you fly, but only if you ride the tide, and balanced on the biggest wave
You race towards an early grave.
this song has a lot of meaning. look into it.
Breathe, breathe in the air.
Don't be afraid to care.
Leave but don't leave me.Look around and choose your own ground.
Long you live and high you fly, and smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry, and all you touch and all you see, is all your life will ever be.
Run, rabbit run.
Dig that hole, forget the sun,
And when at last the work is done
Don't sit down it's time to dig another one.
For long you live and high you fly, but only if you ride the tide, and balanced on the biggest wave
You race towards an early grave.
this song has a lot of meaning. look into it.
simulacra my foot
hey. so i am bak again.
i talked about the concept of simulacra and simulation and the whole what the heck are we doing on this planet and not really enjoying it theme, and in the process, freaked everybody out with the idea.
now that i look at it, shit. what the hell was i thinking about.i was trying to explain a concept that has taken a lot of thinking to analyze and understand to an audience that hadnt been exposed to it ...in 5 mins!!!
well. i deserved the kinda looks that i got (which were, what the heck are you talking about!), and the feedback i got on the presentation. well, the day went well though. it was interesting. and on top of it, it was a little bit of fun too.
i got myself some b&l contact lens. i think i look a little better now. though i really dont know. hell, i can atleast wear goggles now! though i dont see myself doing that though. but still.
the reasons are there, arent they? its how u understand them, and then comprehend and act on them.
so, i said earlier in the day....what is the whole deal? its all one big circle of lots of big lies rite?
sad, isint it, that we take over 5000 years to figure out that all the objective truths got left behind. way, way behind.
things spoken out of context only complicate things. and put people off.
but, then, is there really any true context?
hey. so i am bak again.
i talked about the concept of simulacra and simulation and the whole what the heck are we doing on this planet and not really enjoying it theme, and in the process, freaked everybody out with the idea.
now that i look at it, shit. what the hell was i thinking about.i was trying to explain a concept that has taken a lot of thinking to analyze and understand to an audience that hadnt been exposed to it ...in 5 mins!!!
well. i deserved the kinda looks that i got (which were, what the heck are you talking about!), and the feedback i got on the presentation. well, the day went well though. it was interesting. and on top of it, it was a little bit of fun too.
i got myself some b&l contact lens. i think i look a little better now. though i really dont know. hell, i can atleast wear goggles now! though i dont see myself doing that though. but still.
the reasons are there, arent they? its how u understand them, and then comprehend and act on them.
so, i said earlier in the day....what is the whole deal? its all one big circle of lots of big lies rite?
sad, isint it, that we take over 5000 years to figure out that all the objective truths got left behind. way, way behind.
things spoken out of context only complicate things. and put people off.
but, then, is there really any true context?
simulacra
so this whole world is make believe and so there is no objective reality. in a way, that kinda thought only nicely saves the author of that thought from any analysis. since any such thing would only lead to what can be called 'overanalysis', it therefore reinforces that theory, and thus, the overanalysis thus becomes proof of the theory.
silly, aint it?
well, such is the world we live in. where everything is overanalysed to death, and then discarded as just that, overanalysis and thus, concluding that it is redundant.
so this whole world is make believe and so there is no objective reality. in a way, that kinda thought only nicely saves the author of that thought from any analysis. since any such thing would only lead to what can be called 'overanalysis', it therefore reinforces that theory, and thus, the overanalysis thus becomes proof of the theory.
silly, aint it?
well, such is the world we live in. where everything is overanalysed to death, and then discarded as just that, overanalysis and thus, concluding that it is redundant.
Saturday, June 21, 2003
going to the movies again
i am going to see the matrix reloaded again. i think its a good film. not as good as the first one, since the cats kinda out the bag, but almost as good. ofcourse, technically, they have done lots more things. the fight scenes are amazingly done and the code is shown with more clarity and more beautifully. i guess they finally figured out how it realyl looks like inside the matrix.
beyond the movie, is i think where i shud be looking. i have become a matrix fan a little too much, and heck, its just a movie right?!
but somehow, i am unable to get a grip on my life propoerly. for one, i think i am not enjoying myself too much at work these last few days. i get bored too easily. and since i think so, i am letting myself actually get bored faster.
beside that. nothing else is happening. i wish sometimes that something would happen, and sometimes that something
would'nt happen. but i really cant control that can i.
so, to my friends who are mixing & matching & plotting destiny - inspite of whatever is mapped, only you will decide the direction that you will take. & it might work, it might not. do not look back to see if decisions are good or bad. they are responses of the moment - the best responses we can think of at that time. later, we might respond differently.
this is from the sixth artist. and i think thats kinda the thought i am thinking.
i am going to see the matrix reloaded again. i think its a good film. not as good as the first one, since the cats kinda out the bag, but almost as good. ofcourse, technically, they have done lots more things. the fight scenes are amazingly done and the code is shown with more clarity and more beautifully. i guess they finally figured out how it realyl looks like inside the matrix.
beyond the movie, is i think where i shud be looking. i have become a matrix fan a little too much, and heck, its just a movie right?!
but somehow, i am unable to get a grip on my life propoerly. for one, i think i am not enjoying myself too much at work these last few days. i get bored too easily. and since i think so, i am letting myself actually get bored faster.
beside that. nothing else is happening. i wish sometimes that something would happen, and sometimes that something
would'nt happen. but i really cant control that can i.
so, to my friends who are mixing & matching & plotting destiny - inspite of whatever is mapped, only you will decide the direction that you will take. & it might work, it might not. do not look back to see if decisions are good or bad. they are responses of the moment - the best responses we can think of at that time. later, we might respond differently.
this is from the sixth artist. and i think thats kinda the thought i am thinking.
Friday, June 20, 2003
johnny english
i just saw the movie and it really is funny..ofcourse it is predictable and all that, but it still i quite funny. and natalie imbruglia looks so cool in the movie!
and guess what, she has a tatoo of an om on her butt!
should that be offensive religiously?
or is it right as the om technically does not have any religious connotation. that is, atleast, not to a specific god as such.
thats debatable and arguable. the fact is, it looked good
and she looks good
i just saw the movie and it really is funny..ofcourse it is predictable and all that, but it still i quite funny. and natalie imbruglia looks so cool in the movie!
and guess what, she has a tatoo of an om on her butt!
should that be offensive religiously?
or is it right as the om technically does not have any religious connotation. that is, atleast, not to a specific god as such.
thats debatable and arguable. the fact is, it looked good
and she looks good
Tuesday, June 17, 2003
reloaded
this is a post on the movie. its interpretation is i think best left to the experts. one of the things that i understood from the movie was that simulcra and simulation (the book) has a lot of role to play in the movie. the idealogy of being able to predict thought process and accordingly modify choice sets which are available to allow the participant to reach only one conclusion is just beautiful. i mean, we are not able to predict because of variables whihc are either random or are not defined. like emotion. and random ones are not predictable because their probability is low it is difficult for a computing environment to analyze every probability.
however, imagine a computing environment which is able to counter both points. not only because of the scale of the system, but also because of its ability to intuitivly learn from previous encounters. that system can easily run down each and every probability and also account for emotional responses and accordingly give a tunnel of choices. i think that is what the matrix is all about.
however, think about responses which are not predictable even to yourself. only that emotional responses would not be understood. and those will b the clincer. right?!
this is a post on the movie. its interpretation is i think best left to the experts. one of the things that i understood from the movie was that simulcra and simulation (the book) has a lot of role to play in the movie. the idealogy of being able to predict thought process and accordingly modify choice sets which are available to allow the participant to reach only one conclusion is just beautiful. i mean, we are not able to predict because of variables whihc are either random or are not defined. like emotion. and random ones are not predictable because their probability is low it is difficult for a computing environment to analyze every probability.
however, imagine a computing environment which is able to counter both points. not only because of the scale of the system, but also because of its ability to intuitivly learn from previous encounters. that system can easily run down each and every probability and also account for emotional responses and accordingly give a tunnel of choices. i think that is what the matrix is all about.
however, think about responses which are not predictable even to yourself. only that emotional responses would not be understood. and those will b the clincer. right?!
Sunday, June 15, 2003
simulacra and simulation
i got the name rong on a post sometime back. i hope nobody minds.
this is what it is about
and suddenly, its inclusion in the matrix makes all the sense. thats all i have to say.
i got the name rong on a post sometime back. i hope nobody minds.
this is what it is about
and suddenly, its inclusion in the matrix makes all the sense. thats all i have to say.
Saturday, June 14, 2003
a sufficient post
so i finally met anita. anand, she and i had lunch at only parathas. its a pretty good place ....and well, the parathas are excellent.
i asked her how she manages all the blogs that she does, and i think she sed its not so difficult. i on the other hand, am finding it very difficult to update even this modest place. a lot of times ofcourse, i dont have opinions. but whenever, i do, they are either philospophical, or just plain corny. i dont really know if people dig that kinda stuff (?)
a big bunch of us went to this place called club 9 last nite and came bak only at 2am!....however, i saw that a lot of the people over there just werent enjoying the place. i mean, far too many of the guys and the girls werent having fun. they were looking here and there, just making conversation. u know, they have this look in the eyes, that they would rather do something else. but that something i dont think they know what it is.
so they end up at club 9.
i hope i dont end up like that. i really had fun..the music was excellent...all kinds of stuff....floyd, duran duran, hip hop stuff, and then dance...and also some 80's stuff.
neat place. we will go there again the next weekend!
i dont think blogs need to be autobigraphical. in fact, an autobigraphical blog of a person having a stable life would frankly not generate enough traffic. (ofcourse, the assumption here is that the objective of a blog is to generate traffic!) blogs on generaic issues would probably generate more traffic.
i wont be discussing my professional life here. its not needed and it could affect some people later on, if i continue this. and no point getting into it, if i am not continuing it, rite?!
it will be restricted to talk about ideas, conflicts and interests.
and i will question assumptions of mine always
so i finally met anita. anand, she and i had lunch at only parathas. its a pretty good place ....and well, the parathas are excellent.
i asked her how she manages all the blogs that she does, and i think she sed its not so difficult. i on the other hand, am finding it very difficult to update even this modest place. a lot of times ofcourse, i dont have opinions. but whenever, i do, they are either philospophical, or just plain corny. i dont really know if people dig that kinda stuff (?)
a big bunch of us went to this place called club 9 last nite and came bak only at 2am!....however, i saw that a lot of the people over there just werent enjoying the place. i mean, far too many of the guys and the girls werent having fun. they were looking here and there, just making conversation. u know, they have this look in the eyes, that they would rather do something else. but that something i dont think they know what it is.
so they end up at club 9.
i hope i dont end up like that. i really had fun..the music was excellent...all kinds of stuff....floyd, duran duran, hip hop stuff, and then dance...and also some 80's stuff.
neat place. we will go there again the next weekend!
i dont think blogs need to be autobigraphical. in fact, an autobigraphical blog of a person having a stable life would frankly not generate enough traffic. (ofcourse, the assumption here is that the objective of a blog is to generate traffic!) blogs on generaic issues would probably generate more traffic.
i wont be discussing my professional life here. its not needed and it could affect some people later on, if i continue this. and no point getting into it, if i am not continuing it, rite?!
it will be restricted to talk about ideas, conflicts and interests.
and i will question assumptions of mine always
Wednesday, June 11, 2003
day 3
so its was all about the product today. it was interesting. no doubt about it.
however, i am thinking of some other higher things. like, what is the meaning of a line from infininty?
seen from an infinint perspective, any object is just a point. so, nothing really has a third dimension what?!
hmm...not really. it would be impossible to get to an infinite perspevtive. and hey, what about it being there?
that itself is defined by humans, isint it? since we cannot define something ad infinitum, we call that somehting infinite.
the matrix got banned in egypt. what i say is that there are some pretty screwd guys watching it over there to get the whole symbolism and the whole meaning of the movie and what it portrays. damm, this is pretty interesting! i mite be seeing it this weekend. i hope to give some commentary on it after that at some point of time.
i want to read simulcra and simulation primarily because of the matrix connection. in fact, i got to know about it through the matrix only. though i have no idea of what the damm book has!
so, today was the extended party at job. tomorrow, we will be seeing the vision, and the makers of it. at thier place of berth.
so its was all about the product today. it was interesting. no doubt about it.
however, i am thinking of some other higher things. like, what is the meaning of a line from infininty?
seen from an infinint perspective, any object is just a point. so, nothing really has a third dimension what?!
hmm...not really. it would be impossible to get to an infinite perspevtive. and hey, what about it being there?
that itself is defined by humans, isint it? since we cannot define something ad infinitum, we call that somehting infinite.
the matrix got banned in egypt. what i say is that there are some pretty screwd guys watching it over there to get the whole symbolism and the whole meaning of the movie and what it portrays. damm, this is pretty interesting! i mite be seeing it this weekend. i hope to give some commentary on it after that at some point of time.
i want to read simulcra and simulation primarily because of the matrix connection. in fact, i got to know about it through the matrix only. though i have no idea of what the damm book has!
so, today was the extended party at job. tomorrow, we will be seeing the vision, and the makers of it. at thier place of berth.
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
a whole different place
the whole world i guess is not how i had always thot about it.
it isint, i know. but still.
so. today we had information about the products about the company. it was interesting. it wasnt immersive, but was interesting.
and plus, this is a mind thing. this service sector. the product is made in the mind. which is very exciting.
isint it?
and yet, it is kinda being sold as an fmcg thing. almost. not really, but almost.
the people are all different.there are 2 cute girls. i dont know how they are though. havent really talked to them. dont really want to right now. the guy group is pretty good. the place we are staying in, is pretty cool though. very very slick infact.
thats about it. everybody is studying and i shud do the same.
the whole world i guess is not how i had always thot about it.
it isint, i know. but still.
so. today we had information about the products about the company. it was interesting. it wasnt immersive, but was interesting.
and plus, this is a mind thing. this service sector. the product is made in the mind. which is very exciting.
isint it?
and yet, it is kinda being sold as an fmcg thing. almost. not really, but almost.
the people are all different.
thats about it. everybody is studying and i shud do the same.
Monday, June 09, 2003
first day at a company
the important lesson is, its a different world.
nothing else. lets see what happnes later. right now, i am not going to be judgemental.
its difficult to rationalize business in a way. especially competetive business. but i think it will happend somehow.
as one of the mt's sed, tomorrow is a new day.
the important lesson is, its a different world.
nothing else. lets see what happnes later. right now, i am not going to be judgemental.
its difficult to rationalize business in a way. especially competetive business. but i think it will happend somehow.
as one of the mt's sed, tomorrow is a new day.
Sunday, June 08, 2003
early mornin
its 6 am and the light throught the closed windows has a very delicate colour to it. its just a yellow glow coming in. its looking very good.
so i am up and it is a new day. sleep can be a very good thing. i got up on my own, inspite of putting wakemeup on the comp to well, wake me up!
i got up about 10 minutes before the alarm went off. strange, how our internal clocks seem to work all the time. all these days i was getting up at 11 in the morning and now, just boecz i have to go today at 830 am, i get up automatically at 6am!
cool, aint it!
the earlier quote about the box of grenades is either from to kill a mockingbird, or from some other place. i am hoping everything turns out just fine. this optimism in me, is the only thing taking me through all day and night. life could have been a lot better, but right now, it is good enough.
its 6 am and the light throught the closed windows has a very delicate colour to it. its just a yellow glow coming in. its looking very good.
so i am up and it is a new day. sleep can be a very good thing. i got up on my own, inspite of putting wakemeup on the comp to well, wake me up!
i got up about 10 minutes before the alarm went off. strange, how our internal clocks seem to work all the time. all these days i was getting up at 11 in the morning and now, just boecz i have to go today at 830 am, i get up automatically at 6am!
cool, aint it!
the earlier quote about the box of grenades is either from to kill a mockingbird, or from some other place. i am hoping everything turns out just fine. this optimism in me, is the only thing taking me through all day and night. life could have been a lot better, but right now, it is good enough.
going to bombay
bombay becons. almost like a beacon. but what is the meaning of this moving on. and how far can i run from everything. sometime i will have to slow down. or i will be only with myself. i had thought about writing about a lot of things today. about decisions, about the future, about time travel. and i cant bring myself to rite about any of them. somehow, this whole blog just cannot reflect the kind of thoughts which go on in the head. and though we can kid ourselves about putting in our head in this place. the fact is, inside our minds there is so much going on, and of such complexity, that sometimes, we can just feel our thoughts. not be able to rite them.
being with myslef however, dosent frighten me. what does, is that someday, its going to be too much.and i wont be able to rationalize or give meaning to my life. i think for now, bombay will suffice. but sometime later. i dont know.
the light in my eyes went a little dim tonite.
bombay becons. almost like a beacon. but what is the meaning of this moving on. and how far can i run from everything. sometime i will have to slow down. or i will be only with myself. i had thought about writing about a lot of things today. about decisions, about the future, about time travel. and i cant bring myself to rite about any of them. somehow, this whole blog just cannot reflect the kind of thoughts which go on in the head. and though we can kid ourselves about putting in our head in this place. the fact is, inside our minds there is so much going on, and of such complexity, that sometimes, we can just feel our thoughts. not be able to rite them.
being with myslef however, dosent frighten me. what does, is that someday, its going to be too much.and i wont be able to rationalize or give meaning to my life. i think for now, bombay will suffice. but sometime later. i dont know.
the light in my eyes went a little dim tonite.
Saturday, June 07, 2003
BOMBAY
so i dident go to bombay. we were trying to get my ticket confirmed, and well, it did not happen. so i fly on sunday morn. i reach there sometime before or around noon. get to know everyone. and then let the games begin. i am thinking of making this place into a information site for people to know how a management trainee feels the first few months in the company. i dont kow if that will be allowed (1), plus, i dont know if someone wants to know.
so if you(haha) think this can benefit you, please let me know. or, pls let me know. i like the smaller pls instead of the whole damm word.
first entry. call load rec ops.
still in chennai. havent been able to get to bombay. will be there on the sunday.
call load rec ops unload.
corny as hell!
so i dident go to bombay. we were trying to get my ticket confirmed, and well, it did not happen. so i fly on sunday morn. i reach there sometime before or around noon. get to know everyone. and then let the games begin. i am thinking of making this place into a information site for people to know how a management trainee feels the first few months in the company. i dont kow if that will be allowed (1), plus, i dont know if someone wants to know.
so if you(haha) think this can benefit you, please let me know. or, pls let me know. i like the smaller pls instead of the whole damm word.
first entry. call load rec ops.
still in chennai. havent been able to get to bombay. will be there on the sunday.
call load rec ops unload.
corny as hell!
intelligence
is the ability to resolve conflicting arguments.
we were discussing the concept of fraud and how easy it is in todays world where nobody really checks on signatures and the petrol guy will take your debit card, and charge it and bring it back to you in some time. all that time it is out of your eyes, and well, he could have bought some pepsi with it. hey, its possible rite?!
so why doesnt he do it. its so much moral insanction that he just doesnt want to go into all that trouble.he might lose his job if there is a complaint. he might be arrested. hell, even the shop he buys the pepsi probably wont give him the pepsi cause they will probably know him. there are just too many checks.
guess thats why we are so trusting. because of the society inbetween.
is the ability to resolve conflicting arguments.
we were discussing the concept of fraud and how easy it is in todays world where nobody really checks on signatures and the petrol guy will take your debit card, and charge it and bring it back to you in some time. all that time it is out of your eyes, and well, he could have bought some pepsi with it. hey, its possible rite?!
so why doesnt he do it. its so much moral insanction that he just doesnt want to go into all that trouble.he might lose his job if there is a complaint. he might be arrested. hell, even the shop he buys the pepsi probably wont give him the pepsi cause they will probably know him. there are just too many checks.
guess thats why we are so trusting. because of the society inbetween.
Friday, June 06, 2003
zonkboard !
i am thinking of having a zonkboard on this site.
kinda stupid really...nobody really comes here.
but hey. still!
i am thinking of having a zonkboard on this site.
kinda stupid really...nobody really comes here.
but hey. still!
just couldnt believe this
i read this on the marijuana site.
A far superior experiment by the National Center for Toxicological Research (NCTR) involving 64 rhesus monkeys that were exposed to daily or weekly doses of marijuana smoke for a year found no evidence of structural or neurochemical changes in the brains of rhesus monkeys [6, 58]. Studies performed on actual human populations will confirm these results, even for chronic marijuana users (up to 18 joints per day) after many years of use [8, 9, 10, 11, 12]. In fact, following the publication of two 1977 JAMA studies, the American Medical Association (AMA) officially announced its support for the decriminalization of marijuana.
and i had to find out if this was true or was this site just cooking it up.
so i checked. here it is. not exactly what this guy is saying, but the american medical association is asking for it be be no longer taxed.
weird isint it. hey, again, since people who know me personally read this site. i swear on all the music i love. i avent ad any!
i read this on the marijuana site.
A far superior experiment by the National Center for Toxicological Research (NCTR) involving 64 rhesus monkeys that were exposed to daily or weekly doses of marijuana smoke for a year found no evidence of structural or neurochemical changes in the brains of rhesus monkeys [6, 58]. Studies performed on actual human populations will confirm these results, even for chronic marijuana users (up to 18 joints per day) after many years of use [8, 9, 10, 11, 12]. In fact, following the publication of two 1977 JAMA studies, the American Medical Association (AMA) officially announced its support for the decriminalization of marijuana.
and i had to find out if this was true or was this site just cooking it up.
so i checked. here it is. not exactly what this guy is saying, but the american medical association is asking for it be be no longer taxed.
weird isint it. hey, again, since people who know me personally read this site. i swear on all the music i love. i avent ad any!
smoking up
people say that smoking marijuana is really dangerous. is it more; than smoking a cigarette?
so what will it be, the rette or the weed?
find out yourself here. some myths dispelled.
hey, atleast, dope is more natural.
just for the record, i havent ever had any. it just takes you out of control, and well, i am control myself freak.
but if you must must dope, hey, do it with company which is mature enough to tell you when to stop. and dosent push it down your throat. but, hey, really. just dont dope, what.
people say that smoking marijuana is really dangerous. is it more; than smoking a cigarette?
so what will it be, the rette or the weed?
find out yourself here. some myths dispelled.
hey, atleast, dope is more natural.
just for the record, i havent ever had any. it just takes you out of control, and well, i am control myself freak.
but if you must must dope, hey, do it with company which is mature enough to tell you when to stop. and dosent push it down your throat. but, hey, really. just dont dope, what.
free bird
my favourite song
If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Bye, bye, its been a sweet love.
Though this feeling I can't change.
But please don't take it badly,
'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame.
But, if I stayed here with you girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you'll never change.
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Lord help me, I can't change.
my favourite song
If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Bye, bye, its been a sweet love.
Though this feeling I can't change.
But please don't take it badly,
'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame.
But, if I stayed here with you girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you'll never change.
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Lord help me, I can't change.
Thursday, June 05, 2003
nostalgia
been talking to a old friend from loyola. pratyush. hes doing fine. lives near where sean connery has a place.
is planing on doing a phd. doc prat. that would be cool really.
loyola was frankly, the best time of my life. i got out of my home in loyola. and it was great.
a lot of my growing up happened there. lot of innocence. then IMI happened and i saw the ugly part of life.
it keeps going on. i keep growing up. and parts of my life seem almost unbelievably beautiful and just as far away.
and they keep becoming almost like a dream sometimes.
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
here and there i have been
packing up. it takes quite a lot of time. its quite a mystery what bombay will be like. i have never gone there. though i have travelled to almost everywhere else. seen a tiger in the wild. gone white water rafting in the ganga. got bitten by wild bees in the nilgiris (and almost died). lived in delhi, guwahati, coimbatore, madurai, chennai, tuticorin, tirunelveli, trichy. been to countless places in india. but i have never been outside the country. i guess that will be remedied soon. :)
all my life i have been closest to nature i think. more than anything. i feel so comfortable in a quiet forest. and not of laziness. out of the awareness of life inside it. it is really beautiful. i wanted really to go to valparai this summer. but instead, i went to jaipur.
packing up. it takes quite a lot of time. its quite a mystery what bombay will be like. i have never gone there. though i have travelled to almost everywhere else. seen a tiger in the wild. gone white water rafting in the ganga. got bitten by wild bees in the nilgiris (and almost died). lived in delhi, guwahati, coimbatore, madurai, chennai, tuticorin, tirunelveli, trichy. been to countless places in india. but i have never been outside the country. i guess that will be remedied soon. :)
all my life i have been closest to nature i think. more than anything. i feel so comfortable in a quiet forest. and not of laziness. out of the awareness of life inside it. it is really beautiful. i wanted really to go to valparai this summer. but instead, i went to jaipur.
the errors
i found out that if i write after entering once on this place, all the font comes in as one size. earlier it wasnt. that was becoz it would pick up the font size of the date time stamp and only later, after i have entered once, would it pick up the paragraph font. frankly, i dont know why that happens. but this, i guess is like a patch.
i must say, the photographs on the blog look pretty good. i have half a mind to have lots of them on, and half a mind not to. it isint going to load fast enough first of all, and secondly, it just is too much trouble finding photos already on the net, which convey what i want to say.
i am downloading nero right now (for personal evaluation purposes only!) and it will take some time. so maybe i will put up something in that time here.
time travel
time travel isint possible.
if i could travel through time, and would meet myself in my past, wouldnt i have the memory of meeting myself in the past even before i took the decision to go back into time? since i will not have any such memory (especially since if i DO have the memory, i would not have to really do anything, and i would still end up travelling through time?!!!), it is impossible to meet myslef in my past.
then, how can you explain time travel? possibly by saying that if i do meet myself in the past, in that one instant of meeting, my future changes, and i go on another path, another totally different universe. that means, i have actually switched universes while travelling through time, and if i need to get back to my present, i would have to go from this altered universe to my own one.
now, it is statistically impossible to have another universe absoloutely identical to mine. it would equire me to have the same set of infinite number of circumstances throughout my life for it to be possible. that, is just not happening!
infact, for there to exist another universe which is exactly identical to this one, it would have to be either be viewed from a significantly larger plane to dissolve individual differences (like watching sand on a beach; its all the same!) or it would have to have very limited choice sets available. both cases are not possible in a universe where there are infinite possibilities from our perspective.
so, no other universes. no other places, which means, no other pasts or futures; just one. which means, no recollection of meeting myself. thus, no time travel
inherently, this logic has some flaws. will try to look into them tomorrow.
eschatology
1. The branch of theology that is concerned with the end of the world or of humankind.
2. A belief or a doctrine concerning the ultimate or final things, such as death, the destiny of humanity, the Second Coming, or the Last Judgment.
this word is from dante's divine comedy, which i have just started reading. if nothing else, i am realizing that understanding that poem will take me a very long time. there is too much allegory and too much reference to dante's italy and to the history of that period. however, i will make a pretty good try. ofcourse, time is a factor which may not allow me to read and comprehend at the pace at which i want to. lets see.
1. The branch of theology that is concerned with the end of the world or of humankind.
2. A belief or a doctrine concerning the ultimate or final things, such as death, the destiny of humanity, the Second Coming, or the Last Judgment.
this word is from dante's divine comedy, which i have just started reading. if nothing else, i am realizing that understanding that poem will take me a very long time. there is too much allegory and too much reference to dante's italy and to the history of that period. however, i will make a pretty good try. ofcourse, time is a factor which may not allow me to read and comprehend at the pace at which i want to. lets see.
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
i am kinda done with the customizing. it is a simple enuf thing. the colours are easy to view. and ofcourse, there is the matrix print on it. there has to be some influence, and that too, on the net. how perfect.
now that i have commenting on, i think i should start talking about controversial topics. something that makes you want to take a sweep at the mouse button and click and rite a vociferous comment.
thats kinda thing gets the net moving.
now that i have commenting on, i think i should start talking about controversial topics. something that makes you want to take a sweep at the mouse button and click and rite a vociferous comment.
thats kinda thing gets the net moving.
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